If.....

[acryforhelp]

If only everyone else would give up on me then I could give up on myself......exhausted and tired of fighting. Told my accountability partner and I had been cutting and with her help I told my grandma which is who I am living with. Now I feel like I am being smothered.......I dont know what to do. I was quickly reminded today why going back home to live is not an option but I am not happy where I am either. If everyone would just give up on me I could give up on myself.

[Desuetude]

The fact that people arnt giving up on you should be a reason to stay longer. It's great that you have told someone about it, it's better than keeping it all to yourself as it's just going to come out when your cutting and that won't be good. You might feel smothered by it all now but hopefully you doing that will help you get it sorted.
I don't understand why you can't go home though? You don't have to explain it's just I'm a bit confused. Is there anywhere you could go where you would be happy, maybe just for a.few days to clear your mind. I think as long as people are there for you and want you to get through this you should keep trying, you deserve the chance to be happy and should take it.

[acryforhelp]

Cant go home because my parents basically told me they could handle what I have done to myself and that I needed to find some place else to live. Its days like these when my mom is giving me the silent treatment that I am glad I am not living there as I was actually considering going back. But that is just putting myself in a self defeating position....or so my counselor says.

[Desuetude]

Oh I'm sorry to hear that, if they 'couldn't vendor's it then I'm glad you left and found somewhere at least a little bit better to stay. It sounds like your mum's very immature I mean giving your own daughter the silent treatment, that's pretty low. A defeating position? It sounds as though your better off at your grandmas at the moment anyhow even if your not 100% happy, I mean who is?