Why I'm worthless (according to the voice in my head)

[BlackRainbow]

I'm so f*****g lazy. Always complaining I'm tired while I haven't done anything all day.
I'm so selfish. I always ask others to do things for me, and I never do something for someone else.
I'm so over-sensitive. I cry over nothing, and I'm always complaining.
I'm no good at anything. I suck at everything I do.
I don't have real friends. Everyone just pretends to like me, because they pity me, then gossip about me behind my back.
I'm never gonna make a career, since I suck at everything, but I'm also too stupid to take care of myself, and anyway, who the hell wants to hire me.
I'm so childish. It's a fact.
I'm so ungrateful. God, or whatever, gave me this (terribly ugly) body, which I don't deserve, and I make it even uglier by cutting in it.

I could go on and on, but if I have to write down all the things that make me nothing, you'd still be reading next year.
The main reason though, the one that keeps coming back to me:
I'm gay. Enough said.

[Desuetude]

You don't deserve to feel this way, no one does. Instead of compiling a list of all the bad things in your head pick out all the good ones. Tell yourself you're cleaver and beautiful, you have no idea how much it will help. You are something in this world and deserve to be here, you should never think otherwise
There is nothing wrong with being gay at all, why would there be? Everyone should get to love whoever they want and no one has the right to stand there and judge them.
If you ever need to talk just VM me. It's good to get things out and it's easier with someone who knows nothing abput you to begin with :)

[trooneh]

I'm so f*****g lazy. Always complaining I'm tired while I haven't done anything all day.
That doesn't indicate laziness, perhaps you're tired because you're unhappy.

I'm so selfish. I always ask others to do things for me, and I never do something for someone else.
I'm sure you do more for others than you realize, and you're not a bad person. A bad person exploits others with no feelings of remorse or guilt.
I'm so over-sensitive. I cry over nothing, and I'm always complaining.
That's a sign of depression and not a sign of worthlessness.
I'm no good at anything. I suck at everything I do.
You don't suck at everything at all. What do you enjoy doing most, for example?
I don't have real friends. Everyone just pretends to like me, because they pity me, then gossip about me behind my back.
People here at least will not pretend to like you, and if people actively seek to spend time with you, that's a sure sign that they do like you.
I'm never gonna make a career, since I suck at everything, but I'm also too stupid to take care of myself, and anyway, who the hell wants to hire me.

Plenty of people would want to hire you, if you're only willing to put yourself out there. You have to show why you're a good candidate, and I can help give more advice about this if you'd like.
I'm so childish. It's a fact.
We all have our moments of immaturity, but that doesn't make you especially childish.
I'm so ungrateful. God, or whatever, gave me this (terribly ugly) body, which I don't deserve, and I make it even uglier by cutting in it.
You very much deserve the body you have, because you are a wonderful person. You might not believe it, but I do.

I could go on and on, but if I have to write down all the things that make me nothing, you'd still be reading next year.
The main reason though, the one that keeps coming back to me:
I'm gay. Enough said.

You're gay, so am I. That means nothing. It means you're in a minority, sure, but a minority of a loving community with great support for each other, and with increasing acceptance in greater society. In ten years, I suspect all of the EU as well as the USA will be close to or already have legalized gay marriage.

You're not a bad person, and you're too harsh on yourself. I am sure you have talents just like everyone else. You are a good writer, especially for a non-native English speaker, for example. You can find things you enjoy, be it singing or drawing or writing, and you can use them as outlets for your pain. If you need anything else, leave me a VM. :)

Sean

[Texas warrior]

If you wrote that and you are from Holland you right in English better than I do, thats a dam good skill.