Gay or just wierd?

[joshtosh]

Hi guys. I've read a lot of the AM I GAY kind of threads on here and I rly hope I'm not just repreating the same question but at the moment I am pretty confused and just want some opinions.

I am 13, pretty small for my age .. well very small I guess I'm a late starter. I'm only 4'9 and 85lb and look like i'm 10 or something. I'm probably always going to be pretty small but I hope the hormones kick in soon! Until now I thought I was straight, I've had crushes on girls and a few girlfriends. Nothing serious just crushes. never had any attraction to boys until very recently. Well one boy anyway. He is new to our school from New Zealand (I'm in Australia). He is just over 6ft with a very solid build (his father is Samoan). He would be one of the biggest kids at our school and he's only 13. He could be a bully but he's actually pretty nice, kinda quiet and a bit shy.

Sorry this is longer than I thought, so I skip to the important bit. We kinda became friends and during the holidays I went over to his place. We went swimming and for the first time i saw him with his shirt off. I knew he was solid but he is built like a beast! Big muscles almost like a bodybuilder, I didn't know it was possible at our age but he must be an early developer and maybe some kind of genetic freak like you hear about or he's been working out since he was 5 or something. Maybe I'm exaggerating but to me he looked huge. I started to feel abit turned on which confused me a lot. but then we started horsing around and during this he put his hands under my armpits and lifted me clean off the ground. He looked shocked and said how light I was then started lifting me up and down in front of him like I weighted almost nothing. I guess my brain got overwhelmed and I really dont know why, but i actually jizzed in my pants while he was doing this. So embarrasing. I was wearing boardshorts so I dont think he know's what happened but he must have seen I was blushing so he said sorry and put me down. I quickly jumped in the pool and tried to take care of my mess without him noticing. I made an excuse to head home early after that so i could calm down and work things out.

I'm so confused right now, this has all come out of nowhere. A guy making me jizz in my pants without even touching me? WTF! I've alway wanted to be bigger, so maybe I was feeling this not because i want him, but want to BE him? I dont have mushy feelings for him like i have with girls but just thinking about what happened gives me an instaboner. I feel like i want to see his muscles again, feel them this time and have him lift me again. What the hell is this, som wierd fetish or something? I go back to school tomorrow and will have to see him, I'm so nervous

Thx for reading all this and any advice would be good. has anyone else had similar thoughts or am I a freak?

I hope this doesnt break the no story rule but i wanted to give some context instead of just "lol i like muscles am i gay"

[Frankie66]

Well, Ur def not gay, you just might be curious. When I was thirteen the same thing happened to me but now I do have an attraction to both boys and girls so I'm bi. You are completely normal just dealing with harmones so yes you are completely normal maybe just curious :)

[Abigballofdust]

I can only guess the confusion that's going through your mind and to an extent, I feel you.
First of all, we cannot tell you what you are, but given your age and your current status I'd suggest you not to label yourself 'till you understand yourself fully.
Then, about your accident: have in mind you were with somebody you find attractive, you were shirtless, he was too, he grabbed your armpits which can be pretty arousing and stuff happened, so that's completely normal.
Last, about your size: don't worry, you'll probably grow very soon, how much depends on your family history and hormones and stuff.
I don't think he works out cos he wouldn't be that tall if he worked out before puberty. He might have pumped abs and push ups for fun or something like that, you can always ask him if you're interested. It's not an awkward question.

Also, it's highly likely you'll have this thread moved in the sexuality subforum.

[Jag14]

this is typical during pubety

[randomme]

its normal and for you being short you will probably have a growth spurt

[joshtosh]

Thx for the replies everyone. He wasnt at school today so i didnt get to talk to him. I'm feeling less freaked out now though guess I'll just go with the flow see what happens.

[Bigjack]

Your always a little jealous at that age and hormones are starting to kick in so ur normal

[Evancosta]

Your not gay or weird, you are 100% normal. You just har some type of curiosity like most boys. And the impact of him touching you and your small attraction for him just made you ejaculate. Your fine bro. No sweat.

[fastcar]

My rule is your only gay if you want to be. And even if your attracted to guys its probably just hormones.

[hollisterboi95]

This is absolutely normal dude! You're only 13 and your hormones are going to do this A LOT over the next few years. Hormones completely go out of control, sometimes to the point where even trees will turn you on, lol jk but you get the idea. Anyway yes you are normal and you can't really say anything about sexuality yet because you're going to have many different experiences over the next few years which will affect if you are gay or not. But don't worry most of us all went through experiences similar to this, where we were sort of confused about what was going on. I had a conversation about this with my bros at school and they all said they'd felt the same way before. We've all pretty much done EVERYTHING together and we're all straight. I can say that I've felt the same about ripped guys but not because I like them or anything, it's just like you said, I want to look like them someday!

[Sean4U]

I think that this experience is just what it was...an experience that just happened because you may have looked up to this new boy and really admired him for his physical size and how different he was from you. We all have feelings like this when we start to hit puberty full go. If you were gay, you'd know you were. Right now you're probably just beginning to have feelings for girls and may have some feelings toward boys as a fantasy to be like him. There is no hurry to LABEL yourself as gay, straight or bi. Just see how things play out as you mature, both physically, mentally, and emotionally as that is all that goes into your sexuality as a combination.



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Sean | Male | 15 | Gay

Always open to talking to other guys my age or just plain old questions back and forth. If I'm on send me a message and lets see if we can talk.

[chubbiboi]

Let nature take its course,maybe you just got excited at his big physical experience had an emission due to lack of a wet dream or not pleasuring yourself.
The years ahead will tell you if your big like me,straight or gay,right now I wouldn't worry about it,just get a good education and enjoy your youth,be safe sexually,condoms protection,don't worry about size,I was chubby but small genitaia shy to 2" penisat your age,size don't matter,enjoy what you got,remember monkeys have small genitals,but are not extinct,lol
Relax,make lots friends,all sexes.
Chubbi;)

[Pyro99]

ure probably just curious.