ackmedsgirl666
January 20th, 2012, 08:32 AM
my ex bf called me at 1:00 this morning said he wanted to talk...
the conversation started out good and before i knew it i was bawlingmy eyes out. i was finally over him and hearing his voice made me miss everything. i kept having memories of all the times we had, everytime we kissed, everytime we had sex.. everything and it made me feel like a worthless piece of shit. did i do something wrong to feel like this.. like i feel guilty that its my fault what hes doing to himself. hes been popping oxycontins for the past week like no tomorrow and hes been abusing it... i dont want him to die and i dont feel badly about him its just he pished my buttons last night. he brought my bfs family into the call... making fun of my mother, his mother his whole family.. man i wish i had recorded the whole convo... he deserves to suffer for what he did wrong...... i wanna make the pain all go away..... i still have feelings for him because it has been confirmed i am 100% pregnant with my exes baby... and im scared
hes threatening to take me to court and that he will be getting custody, he doesnt deserve the baby and maybe if he doesnt then neither do i.. i wanna escape this pain i feel... i'm so angry !!!!!!!!
what can i do to get past this bullshit... i dont want it effecting my relationship with my bf :(:(
the conversation started out good and before i knew it i was bawlingmy eyes out. i was finally over him and hearing his voice made me miss everything. i kept having memories of all the times we had, everytime we kissed, everytime we had sex.. everything and it made me feel like a worthless piece of shit. did i do something wrong to feel like this.. like i feel guilty that its my fault what hes doing to himself. hes been popping oxycontins for the past week like no tomorrow and hes been abusing it... i dont want him to die and i dont feel badly about him its just he pished my buttons last night. he brought my bfs family into the call... making fun of my mother, his mother his whole family.. man i wish i had recorded the whole convo... he deserves to suffer for what he did wrong...... i wanna make the pain all go away..... i still have feelings for him because it has been confirmed i am 100% pregnant with my exes baby... and im scared
hes threatening to take me to court and that he will be getting custody, he doesnt deserve the baby and maybe if he doesnt then neither do i.. i wanna escape this pain i feel... i'm so angry !!!!!!!!
what can i do to get past this bullshit... i dont want it effecting my relationship with my bf :(:(