Don't want to go home.

[Seth48]

Hi, I haven't posted here for a while but I thought I would give it a shot. I recently started developing this utter fear of being home. I think I have it because of my mother now, but I'm not sure.

Neither of my parents are abusive, nor do they fight, but it just seems like every time I'm home, I feel horrible. I just feel so down, and I can't seem to get better. My mother's voice has become like nails on a chalkboard, and my father makes me feel indifferent. This has all got me very upset and I'm not sure what to do. Every single little thing my mother tells me makes me furious. Not to where I take actual verbal or physical action, but to the point where I have to sit and calm down, or do something else to calm down, so I won't do anything physical or verbal.

I also feel like my mother never listens to me, nor does she support anything that I do, and that really upsets me. I feel like I just need to be away from the home, (at school or friends house or whatever) to be happy lately.. It sucks.

What do you guys think? Any input? Why is this making me so angry, and should I talk to my psychiatrist about it?

Thanks!

[Unfortunate1]

Dude, I know what your going through. Happened to me one time. See if you can go to a camp or something, or go somewhere for the next school break. Spend the night at a friends house. Its that tension between teen and parent. Talk to them about it, I know thats the last thing you want to hear, but they are your parents. It's not like it could make it worse, right? i mean A for effort! it won't matter a year from now, just do it. Parents are alot more understanding than we think. They were our age once.

[Desuetude]

Hey i think you should talk to someone about it. it doesn't have to be a parent, a friend or a psyciatrist if you really want but i think you should get to the bottom of why your feeling this way. yeah going to a friends and spending time away from home is going to help, but only short term so if you want to get it sorted you have to start at the begining. I kind of know how you feel, not so much with my dad but when im with my mum i get annoyed at anything she says, i havent thought about it that much but now i've read this i just realised. I just shut myself in my room and keep as far away from her as possible but if i do end up talking with her it ends up in a big argument with us both swearing and her saying i should go live with my dad.

Maybe listen to music when your in the house, read a book, it might help the feeling that your there. It could be early childhood things that have happened to you or things that your parents have done that is the cause but you have forgotten about them. i know people say talk with your parents but if you feel like i do when i talk to my mum thats probably the worst way to go about it. The fact that you feel your mum doesnt listen to you may be a reason aswell, you need to sort thing out with her, try some way to get the point across that you need her. It will almost definitly help with the other problems if you know that she is there for you whenever you need her.
I hope it helped and it all gets sorted soon :)

[Seth48]

Thank you for the help guys. It's nice to see someone listening and I think that's what I needed. I'm going to talk about it when I visit my psychiatrist!