Fuck.

[Spook]

In just one day, my life has completely collapsed beneath me. It all started yesterday. My friend's birthday came around, and we had fun until we got Will to hang out with us. He began to make fun of me, and my mood started from there. I was depressed at the party, and it didn't help that my best friend joined in on the teasing. I was wounded by how she was acting, but hid it. We were hanging out, but then she started to ignore me. She didn't want to do anything anymore, so I disinvolved myself, and went into a corner to text. Her mom found me, and said "Caitlin, this is Naomi's birthday, and it's all about her. Stop trying to make this about you. It's not about you, so put on a happy face and blend in with the party." That was it for me. I can't stand other people's parents telling me things. I was ready to burst, but I went back and 'mingled.' I came back and said, "That bitch told me-----and repeated what she had said. I tried to interact with Naomi as I felt uncomfortable on my own; and having being insulted by her mom (in my opinion). She continued to ignore me and leave me out of everything. By the time the party was over, her brother had hidden my cell phone, and Naomi's mom kept saying "It's probably lost forever, Caitlin. Sorry." My dad came to pick me up, and I was wiped. We made it halfway out of the neighborhood, and they called to tell me they had found my phone. I had to face them again, talking as little as possible; then left. I cried my eyes out at home. Yeah, I'm such a baby. But honestly, I should be used to this by now. Nobody likes me, anyways. I'm so fucking antisocial because everyone's always picked on me. I don't know what I do wrong, but I'm just an utter fucking failure in life. I try so hard, and nothing I ever do matters. I finally calmed down this morning, when my dad came in and said I had called Ms. Sharma a bitch. I can't control my fucking big mouth, and my best friend spilled the beans. Wow. But you know, maybe this really is all my fault. I hid out in my room and started writing a sob story, then I put it in a box and shoved it under my bed. I'm writing another one tonight. Maybe writing is all that will keep me from taking out a razor and slicing up my arteries for the first time- though it sounds tempting. I can't say anything, of course. Remember? I'm a fucking mental freak and whatever I say or do will put me in a phych ward. Don't want to end up like my siblings, huh? Sorry you had to listen.

I'm such a fuck up.

[Koffing]

From what I read it's not your fault. Your friend was very mean to you, and that's not what friends do. And the mother sounds very selfish for her daugther...

And it's not bad to cry. It's the only way to get relaxed without hurting yourself. Please don't cut yourself ;) It helps nothing and you get a bunch of scars.

Feel free to talk to me whenever you want ;) (though I am a boy :D)

[CJM123]

this is how i lost a relation ship with my last girlfriend. she ganged up on me with a friend. if its hurting. kill it off. thats the advice i would give

[Spook]

The problem in my life is. She's my only friend. I don't have the balls to interact with anybody else, Naomi and I are like sisters, we've known each other for nine years. I hate her family though, and that's a big problem for us. She often gets ganging up on me and I always hold it in. I'm so pathetic; I stoop at her feet so I won't lose her.

[CJM123]

i have been through your situation. it really stings. i get over it eventually

[Koffing]

Friends come and go. You will find new friends eventualy ;)

[Burn007]

Noone's fault you both are in pyberty and you have rages it will stop dont worry just try to apologize even if it is above your proud

[Spook]

How does this have to do with puberty? o.O

[Manga]

How does this have to do with puberty? o.O

Meh, people react un-rationally during puberty a lot due to hormones and other things going on with your body. It's just part of being a teenager.

Pretty sure that was the point he was trying to make across.

[Spook]

I think it's more along the lines of me being unmedicated during that time as I am considered a crazy person. :)

Well, my problem has only worsened. My parents want me; the antisocial megabitch, to go and apologize to my friend's mom- and MAKE IT UP TO HER. I can imagine me, sweeping the floors, while Naomi's dumbass brother laughs. Then, in a useless attempt to lighten my side, I told my mom that Naomi had called her a bitch too (which is true, but I had kept secret as to not cause trouble). Now she want us BOTH to do each other's moms favors- so now Naomi will be more pissed at me than she already is. Not to mention that she lied on the phone when she said she didn't tell her mom about me calling her a bitch. Her mom told my mom she HAD. Anyways, another thing I hate about that gossipbug. So then my mom launches into a lecture about how I should respect adults. Naomi's mom isn't really considered an adult in my book. Partying, drinking, bringing home a boyfriend a week. Teenage girl. Anyways, that's aside the point. I have potentially murdered my supposed bff and I's relationship, we have to bear through the "consequences" while being pissed off at each other and at our moms, and now my mom is talking about me taking social therapy because I told her that I basically have no friends. I don't want help! Yeah, I've pulled the 'therapy helps' shit as advice to others, but people usually don't tend to follow their own advice. I'm a physcotic loser, and now I lost the only thing that keeps my feet planted to the ground. Great job to me.

[oneDay]

No you're not, you are none of those labels.
Maybe you can give a formal apology to your friend's mom but if you disagree with your parents then talk it over with them. Don't argue, just try to find a solution. Good luck.