rissa-_-
January 17th, 2012, 12:18 AM
Tonight my friend almost killed herself. her boyfriend and i were extremely worried, she wouldn't pick up our phone calls, or texts. tried to call her mom or sister, but didn't know their number. her boyfriend and i were about to cry because we were that scared of losing someone so greatful. But after awhile she finally pick up his phonecalls.
Today i had a doctor's appointment, i found out that i have a disorder called dysthymia. i had never heard of it until today, i read over and over all the symptoms and what it meant. and i still have no idea how i have this disorder, that was the old me.
So the other day this girl found out that i had a problem with how she acts around people and now we don't talk. after all of that commotion all of my friends would rather hang out with her instead of me. just the other day i was sitting alone against the wall in one class( i was writing a story at the time) and they'd just turn around and gave me a stare like they didn't know me. this happened on another day; my friend has some family problems with abusiveness and i was trying to help her(this was over paper) and about ten minutes after we were done writing the girl that i have a problem with desides to pick up the paper and starts reading it like it was her buisness. my friend and i were exetremely mad that day.
my friend of ten years that is controlling my life. i have a friend and the only way i can speak to him is over the phone or right before first class when i'm not around her. everyone says that i have a leash on and she's controlling it. but i'm too shy and scared to tell her off, i'm her only friend. she's very sensitive when it comes to reality.
and tonight on facebook i vented to a friend that i'm not that close to about all of this stuff and all he could say was "wow" and he logged off. should i be concerned about it or just let it fly like i never told him anything?
Today i had a doctor's appointment, i found out that i have a disorder called dysthymia. i had never heard of it until today, i read over and over all the symptoms and what it meant. and i still have no idea how i have this disorder, that was the old me.
So the other day this girl found out that i had a problem with how she acts around people and now we don't talk. after all of that commotion all of my friends would rather hang out with her instead of me. just the other day i was sitting alone against the wall in one class( i was writing a story at the time) and they'd just turn around and gave me a stare like they didn't know me. this happened on another day; my friend has some family problems with abusiveness and i was trying to help her(this was over paper) and about ten minutes after we were done writing the girl that i have a problem with desides to pick up the paper and starts reading it like it was her buisness. my friend and i were exetremely mad that day.
my friend of ten years that is controlling my life. i have a friend and the only way i can speak to him is over the phone or right before first class when i'm not around her. everyone says that i have a leash on and she's controlling it. but i'm too shy and scared to tell her off, i'm her only friend. she's very sensitive when it comes to reality.
and tonight on facebook i vented to a friend that i'm not that close to about all of this stuff and all he could say was "wow" and he logged off. should i be concerned about it or just let it fly like i never told him anything?