I don't know if it really happened or not.

[evanescencefan1]

When I was younger, I lived in a duplex and the boy next door always babysat my sister and I. I think that he may have raped me, but I don't know if it really happened or not. I just remember one night he had me sleep in his bed with him, and I guess I was just to little to understand that it was wrong.

I now have problems with people touching me, tickling me, just being close to me. Is there any way for me to find out the truth, or at least cope with what might have happened?

[caden048]

if i was you i would go and talk to a therapist or someone... i think it would help alot...

[northskater110]

You need to reach out to somebody about this. Even if you are unsure, you need to move on from this travesty and keep moving on. Don't let this event ruin your life, you need to progress as a person. Talk to your parents, friends, or a therapist about this to help you cope.

[monkeydo]

I kind of had something similar in that I remember a family member talking about stuff when I was a lot younger, like he wanted to "see" certain things... and I also don't know if anything happened after that because I don't really remember. But I guess I'm lucky coz as far as I know it hasn't affected me or anything and I'm really affectionate and stuff. I agree though, even if it maybe didn't happen (since you're not sure) its still important to get to the bottom of what's causing it and if that means talking to somebody professional or whatever then I would do it.