I might be leaving (just for awhile, or maybe forever..)

[Underground_Network]

There are two reasons I might be leaving (permanently or just temporarily). One is because my life has been a bit screwed up lately, I've leaned towards killing myself lately. I can't handle the pressures of school and the pressure brought on by the kids at my school. I only have a few friends and a lot of my friends have left me, because they want to be cooler. I've done several things I regret and I just don't know. I feel really upset and suicidal, even though I really have no reason to be upset. I'm afraid of the future, in all reality the present is fine, I'm averaging at least an A- in all my classes, what are left of my friends are still there for me when I'm down, but I'm just afraid of the future... I wanna kill myself before I mess up, it probably seems really strange, but I just can't help but want to kill myself... I feel my beliefs are wrong and everything I know is screwed up. I'm too apathetic and sadistic, although I'm not sure I'm exactly sadistic, I enjoy seeing other people in pain, but I don't like to be the pain-bringer. Also, it doesn't seem like I'm a necessity on this site, or that my comments mean anything, in fact, most of them just get ignored. And it also doesn't seem like this site can stop anyone from commiting suicide, you can provide support, yes, but you can't actually help anyone completely. I know through an online site its near impossible to help someone stop themselves, but I've actually heard of some really good sites, much better than this one. I might try them out but I don't know. I just added the poll because I want to know whether you think I should stay or not and whether my posts actually mean anything to anyone. I want you to answer truthfully. If you really want me to stay, I'll stay, although then again, no one will probably even post in this thread or vote on the poll.. a tie or less means I'm leaving, and if there are tons of people who don't care or want me to leave, then I'll be gone permanently. And it will most likely end up being either, I stay here or I'm gone permanently.

[Unpresentable]

Don't go. I'm not sure what else to say, besides that you should stay. Maybe we can help sometime. Maybe I can help sometime. Just find me if you need to talk, and I'll listen, I promise.

[Underground_Network]

I'm starting to realize there are people worse off than me, but then again, I don't see a lot of my posts being noticed. I really try to help but I never get any recognition for it. I'm not saying I should be celebrated, I'm just saying a little thank you here or there would be nice.

[Unpresentable]

People don't say thanks enough. It gets frustrating, I know. I'm sure people notice, they just don't say anything.

[MoveAlong]

People don't say thanks enough. It gets frustrating, I know. I'm sure people notice, they just don't say anything.

Completely true. There isn't enough gratitude. I mean, it's a teen site, the most selfish people in a regular world :P

My posts mean something, even if I want to deny it. And you contribute, and you don't hurt anyone's feelings, so hey...
I voted stay...

[nachtspiegel]

I don't know you, I've never talked to you...
But I've seen your posts. I've seen you around, whether you're posting your favorite songs in the 4th wall or helping someone out with a problem they're having. I think that you're a good part of this site and that you should stay here.

If you're having these thoughts... worry about yourself, too. It's good to help other people, but you need to pick yourself up, too.

Either way, I hope things get better for you.

*votes stay*

[Everglow]

Stay dude! I enjoy you here..it's fun :) if you ever want to talk don't hesitate to reach me. I'll listen, I promise

[Underground_Network]

Well, I guess I'll stay. Thanks for bringing me to realization, but I come to this site because in my life I have trouble getting noticed as it is, and I like at least being known here, having people who will support me. I think I'm going to stay because I realize support is a really good thing and almost everyone on this site is friendly and supportive. I shouldn't really expect everyone here to be completely mature and understanding, but this site is just a good place to escape to when life is hell. I'm almost definitely going to stay. :)

[Ironic Infidel In England]

Good! From what I've seen of you, you're a nice guy.

[thesphinx]

please stay

[Romeo]

Yes, I think you should stay. Although I really don't know you that well, your contributions definitely help out here. I know what it's like to not get gratitude; that's always something we can improve on!