fredg545
January 12th, 2012, 11:59 PM
I've been questioning my sexuality for about 3-4 years now (I'm a college freshman), and have decided recently that I'm probably gay (just because what straight guy questions for that long), and I'm in a bit of a situation.
I have an older brother who is gay (1 year older), but we're not on the greatest terms because he always accuses me of trying to be like him, which is mostly based on us both being casual drug users and going to specific types of parties/shows (he started before me of course). My mom is completely accepting of my brother, but both of us being gay means she'll never have a daughter in law, sad.
I also am in a bit of a sticky situation with some girls from college. At school i have hooked up with a couple girls and had sex with one of the two (lets call her alice). Now Alice and i were just friends until one drunken night she admitted she liked me and wanted to ****, being a virgin i said sure and we did later that week when we were sober (which barely worked cause i could hardly get it up). Anyways she is still under the impression that I want to make this a friends with benefits sort of thing, because she asked if i wanted to **** anymore and i stupidly said yes.
In addition i am "cuddle buddies" (hook up buddies) with this girl from High school who i use for a drug connection (yes I know I'm a terrible person). We almost dated over last summer, but had a falling out in september, and I've just recently started talking to her again for the above reason and because i felt bad about not talking to her for so long.
Finally coming out is really hard because i don't know how it'll affect my relationship with two of my best guy friends from home who I've know since i was 5 and some of my best guy friends that I met at college. Thats about the whole situation, and I'm really unsure of what to do and how to tell each person without ruining our relationships.
School is isolated from home, so It'd be easy to come out to either without the other group knowing. But I'm mostly worried about telling one person and having it spread to another person that I'm close to and them feeling backstabbed for not being told when it may play an important role in our relationship. IDK what to do, its a whole big mess, but i figure this comunity would be able to offer some advice
I have an older brother who is gay (1 year older), but we're not on the greatest terms because he always accuses me of trying to be like him, which is mostly based on us both being casual drug users and going to specific types of parties/shows (he started before me of course). My mom is completely accepting of my brother, but both of us being gay means she'll never have a daughter in law, sad.
I also am in a bit of a sticky situation with some girls from college. At school i have hooked up with a couple girls and had sex with one of the two (lets call her alice). Now Alice and i were just friends until one drunken night she admitted she liked me and wanted to ****, being a virgin i said sure and we did later that week when we were sober (which barely worked cause i could hardly get it up). Anyways she is still under the impression that I want to make this a friends with benefits sort of thing, because she asked if i wanted to **** anymore and i stupidly said yes.
In addition i am "cuddle buddies" (hook up buddies) with this girl from High school who i use for a drug connection (yes I know I'm a terrible person). We almost dated over last summer, but had a falling out in september, and I've just recently started talking to her again for the above reason and because i felt bad about not talking to her for so long.
Finally coming out is really hard because i don't know how it'll affect my relationship with two of my best guy friends from home who I've know since i was 5 and some of my best guy friends that I met at college. Thats about the whole situation, and I'm really unsure of what to do and how to tell each person without ruining our relationships.
School is isolated from home, so It'd be easy to come out to either without the other group knowing. But I'm mostly worried about telling one person and having it spread to another person that I'm close to and them feeling backstabbed for not being told when it may play an important role in our relationship. IDK what to do, its a whole big mess, but i figure this comunity would be able to offer some advice