Joshh97
January 9th, 2012, 07:26 PM
I need to write this sort of quick. But I've come off here mainly to try and do what I've been told to do, face the world as it is. Anyway I have like 3 groups of 'friends' they've all got different personalities, one is the much around group, when I'm on a high I have to make the most, so this is it, picking on the vulnerable teachers, missing lessons, being late etc. The others, well theres a mixture, the outcasts sums them up, this is where I'm suited but theres always a clash of personalities here. They dick about and I hate it but without them I'd be 6ft under. I don't want to be sectioned as 'outcasts' for ever. I have this other 'group' its a bunch of girls who I get along with one of her real cute brothers but hes like 3 years younger :eek:. One of the girls in there (shes a real good mate, shes knows I'm depressed etc (shes got scars) so were in the same boat. But they just pick on me in lessons to make themself look big. I know this is wrong but I can't live without them, I'd get bullied more. So what do I do??? I'm really stuck. Oh and this girl who I tell most things, she fancies the pants off me, but I swing the other way and shes really into gossiping, I don't trust her.
Back home. Well things are tough. We have no money. We eat more, we keep growing, when I'm depressed I get cold so I have the heating on. I again, when the family comes over. I don't go to my dads family as they hate my mum, my mums side are really sporty. I hate it, so I sit upstairs, alone.
This is all I can write.
Wheres my life going? Anywhere? :cry:
Edit: Forgot a bit, at school theres a love triangle with these 3 boys. T and V where going out for about 5 months behind closed doors. T and V broke up, but kept their little things still behind closed doors. V comes along and takes an interest in Z (who I've knowns gay since year 7 due to person experience :P). Anyway. Z and V are still together, whilst V been cheating on Z with T. Z didn't know, until today, when I said to someone I knew about it all. I'm now getting the blame. :/ He was crying home all the way home (he was behind me). I really liked T. Really. Not gunna happen is it.
Back home. Well things are tough. We have no money. We eat more, we keep growing, when I'm depressed I get cold so I have the heating on. I again, when the family comes over. I don't go to my dads family as they hate my mum, my mums side are really sporty. I hate it, so I sit upstairs, alone.
This is all I can write.
Wheres my life going? Anywhere? :cry:
Edit: Forgot a bit, at school theres a love triangle with these 3 boys. T and V where going out for about 5 months behind closed doors. T and V broke up, but kept their little things still behind closed doors. V comes along and takes an interest in Z (who I've knowns gay since year 7 due to person experience :P). Anyway. Z and V are still together, whilst V been cheating on Z with T. Z didn't know, until today, when I said to someone I knew about it all. I'm now getting the blame. :/ He was crying home all the way home (he was behind me). I really liked T. Really. Not gunna happen is it.