idk

[welcome_to_chaos]

i dont know why i turned here tonight. i mean ive been doing so well w the help of my friends...but it just seems like im inching closer to doing it again..i mean. ive already gotten everything i need together to do it and everything...i really just am having the worst urges. a lot of stuff had been going down and right now. the urg feels like its overpowering me. i dont know what to do anymore </3

[wattado]

you dont need to hurt yourself. it doesnt help. your stronger then that and you need to overcome that urge. i know its hard but it is something that needs to be done because harming yourself isnt worth it

[Fiction]

Ray the best thing you can do is get rid of everything that you could use. It takes away the temptations and even if you wanted to do it, the fact that you can't wouldn't be a bad thing. I'm sure you don't want to have to go back to hiding cuts again.

[NightFighter]

Like Kathy said, the most important action that you can do right now is throw away or (hopefully) destroy whatever you have accumulated to hurt yourself. If you have the method and the means to selfharm then you are more likely to perform said act.
You are obviously strong willed and a determined person. Otherwise you would not be as successful as you are at refraining from hurting yourself.
There are a million (literally) things you can do to distract yourself from the act. I, personally, advise that you either write or speak to someone about your thoughts and feelings. They don't have to be significant, the just have to be what you're thinking and feeling now.
Urges aren't hard to get rid of but the means you use are easy to.
Make life easier for yourself.

[welcome_to_chaos]

thanks kathy and well..everyone. i guess i know what i have to do. its just the temptations are so high right now

[NightFighter]

But they will pass. Remember that.
Temptations will not last and you can beat them with time.
You are stronger.

[welcome_to_chaos]

But they will pass. Remember that.
Temptations will not last and you can beat them with time.
You are stronger.

yes :) i guess thats something im not good at

[NightFighter]

Stay on VT.
I know its hard to think of how you will feel in the future because emotions are now.
Just trust me and trust yourself. You know you dont need self harm right now and you know it will be beneficial to refrain from it.
Just resist for as long as you can.
That's all i ask.

[welcome_to_chaos]

that is one thing i can try to do. stay online as long as possible

[NightFighter]

Stay on until you fall asleep.
Challenge accepted? :P

[welcome_to_chaos]

challenge accepted :p

[NightFighter]

:D
Im rooting for you!

[welcome_to_chaos]

:D
Im rooting for you!

thanks. ima need it. this is hard already

and it just got harder...the only reason i got on the computer today just went offline DX

[NightFighter]

Whoa, im still online! :P
Dont let one person dictate what you do and how you feel.
Everyone needs a support system. I know how that sounds but its true. You need many different resources to make you happy.
As the saying goes 'Dont put all your eggs in one basket'.

[welcome_to_chaos]

You need many different resources to make you happy.
As the saying goes 'Dont put all your eggs in one basket'.

eh. true :/

[NightFighter]

Easy to say yet hard to do.
I know.
Let's not think about that now though.
That's a whole different story. Maybe one to be answered and dealt with tomorrow.
For now just stay away from danger :)