Really confused

[foot3ball]

I'm Really killing myself about what sexuality I am. I need real help.
So I've always been attracted to women. I remember sneaking into my parents bedroom just so I could read his porn magazines. He was always very open with me about things, so when I was eight, he let me read and look at them as often as I like (which I did every time I went to the bathroom). To this day, I still like the magazines. I also have serious crushes on a lot of girls, personalities, looks,and I can get turned on by really hot girls.
But as time has passed, I feel like I've almost been desensitized. I can tell a hot, sexy woman from another and have the types of women I like more the others, but it's not always easy to get my self sexually turned on anymore.
And then there's guys. I get somewhat turned on by gay porn now, though there's also thoughts going on in my head that more then wanting to have sex with them, it's more like I just want to be like them (I only watch gay porn with tall, muscular bodies and large packages; men I figure that if they were straight/bi, women would be dying for them). I can masturbate to these videos, but after I'm done, I don't feel right (while when I watch porn with women, I feel fine). Also, I've never had a crush or interest with any guy my age on an emotional or truly sexual level. And I also can't imagine myself having gay sex.
So that's pretty much it. I know that in 20-30 years I want to be married to a women and have children btw. I'm just not sure that I'd be able to turn my self on considering I've been "desensitized". In other words, I really want to be straight, I'm just not sure if I'm totally am. I'm really sorry abou how long this is. I just needed to say everything so I can be sure. So, please, tell me what you're thoughts are

[Misfit]

My thoughts are that you are in-fact straight or at least bi-curious at this point I am going to assume you are currently in you're teens which also leads me to believe you are in puberty. (I think I worded that whole sentence poorly but you get what I mean.)
I believe you are straight due to the fact that you stated that you have had serious crushes on females for their looks (sexually) and for their personality (emotional).

By stating that you have only had a sexual thought for attractive men rather than a sexual and emotional attraction i concluded that the chances of you being gay are quite slim, and going back to my deduction of you being in the stages of puberty would write this off to hormones.

As for the attraction to gay porn, well porn is porn the point of it is to arouse someone. You can't judge you're sexuality based of what you enjoy watching cause chances are you are going to enjoy most genres of porn due to the sheer fact that is arouses you.

I get the feeling I worded this poorly but I hope you understand what im getting at...

[Craig1995]

My thoughts are that you are in-fact straight or at least bi-curious at this point I am going to assume you are currently in you're teens which also leads me to believe you are in puberty. (I think I worded that whole sentence poorly but you get what I mean.)
I believe you are straight due to the fact that you stated that you have had serious crushes on females for their looks (sexually) and for their personality (emotional).

By stating that you have only had a sexual thought for attractive men rather than a sexual and emotional attraction i concluded that the chances of you being gay are quite slim, and going back to my deduction of you being in the stages of puberty would write this off to hormones.

As for the attraction to gay porn, well porn is porn the point of it is to arouse someone. You can't judge you're sexuality based of what you enjoy watching cause chances are you are going to enjoy most genres of porn due to the sheer fact that is arouses you.

I get the feeling I worded this poorly but I hope you understand what im getting at...

This is pretty much the perfect answer for u and I agree completely with this :)