Cicero
January 6th, 2012, 09:33 PM
So I've been very worried about this subject especially within the last year. I think I'm straight but very curious but I'm unsure.
* you can either read the whole paragraphs or the questions or both! I did the questions so it's easier on you! :)
When it comes to girls I'm very picky. But I also have a very low self esteem. With girls I feel pike they all must be as beautiful as Kim Kardashian. With girls I also tend to pick them apart, like if this one girl has to big of a forehead I won't like her much, or if her teeth aren't perfect I'm not that attracted.
With guys, I feel like I'm obsessed with their bodies. I've always wanted good pecs, armpit hair, abs, all of that. And when I see guys I tend to automatically be drawn to their stomach region. Then I might look at their legs because I have medium hairy legs, for some reason I've just looked at the legs. I feel like I'm sexually attracted to guys, I would want to give a bj or hj. But when it comes to imagining a future with them, my mind goes blank. I feel like my mind just stops working and I can't think.
When it comes to imagining a future with girls I can. When I daydream I imagine myself doing interviews on tv about m life. And I daydream about talking about my wife, how we raise our kids and what not. I know that's weird it's just what I think about cause I always am bored and have free time.
:oops:
But with girls I can imagine marrying them, but with guys my mind goes blank, as if it's something my mind doesn't know how to register.
I grew up in a catholic home. But that's not why I don't wanna be gay.
When I think about guys who are teenagers. I could imagine having sex with them and doing everything like that. But when I think about kissing a man when I'm older I don't.
On my iPhone 4 I save pictures of guys I think are really good looking. I've even put it as my phone wallpaper, but with girls I don't do that. I just like to look at them in person. One thing I like about guys is when they have abs pecs and all that. And their leg armpit and arm hair is blondish-brown. Kinda like light brown. I feel like I could stare at the pictures of hours. But when it comes with growing old with a man I can't imagine that, but when I think about having sexual stuff with a guy I certainly would. I am just really worked and confused. When it comes to body hair I also want to have light brown body hair, cause I have like super dark black body hair.
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So can I imagine growing old with a guy? No
Do I imagine growing old with a girl? Yes
Do I obsess with how good looking a guy is and his physique (with bodyhair)? Yea
What parts do I like on a man vs a woman (or what parts do I look at)?
Woman: butt, boobs, clothes, teeth, hair, hygiene (zigs, smell, look etc)
Man: pecs, abs, armpit hair, teeth, leg hair, biceps and arm muscles, if veins pop out and how the face is
Do I want sexual excitment with a guy more or a girl? Guy
Would I want a boyfriend? I don't think I would, I would just want a guy that's good looking and good physique to do sexual stuff with like how guys call certain friends jerk off buddies
Do I like girls? Yes. But I cannot imagine having much sexual relations with a girl, I can only imagine makin out and her jerking me off and me touching her breasts (when I say I cannot imagine I literally can't, I guess it's cause u mostly watch gay porn)
What type of porn arouses me the most? Gay
Have I ever experimented? No
Do I imagine sharing a house with a man or a woman? A woman
Which is more clear: sharing a future with a man or a woman? A woman
What's it like thinking of a future with a man vs a woman?
Man: very unclear, can't imagine sharing a future with a man, my mind feels as if it stops working when trying to think of a future with a man
Woman: I can imagine having a wedding and marrying a woman, I can imagine raising kids with a woman and growing old with one, I can imagine sharing my feelings with a woman and I can imagine us doing everything together (unlike a man, I can only imagine sexual stuff)
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*1. Is this just hormones?
2. Do I think like this cause I'm that obsessed with getting that perfect body?
*3. What's my sexuality?
*4. What does all this mean?
*5. I've been told going through all this is normal for a teenager, even normal for a straight teenager. Is that true?
*6. Why do I imagine only doing sexual stuff with a man and life long stuff with a woman (like raising kids, growing old, sharing our day together etc)? Is this feeling normal?
7. Do you feel like this?
*8. What's going on with me? Is it normal?
9. Do I feel like this especially cause I've never experimented?
10. Why do I get turned on with gay porn and not regular? (I do with regular but it takes longer, I mostly get turned on with gay)
*11. Is this just being a teenager?
The questions marked with stars are the most important (*) and I'd rather you answer those than the rest, that is if you don't wanna answer the rest. If you answer all of them with good answers you'll he a good reputation from me!:D
Thanks to the vt community for not getting anoid with me and having patience! I'm just very worried when it comes to this subject.
The questions I answered are their to help you understand more. So it isn't in another long paragraph.
* you can either read the whole paragraphs or the questions or both! I did the questions so it's easier on you! :)
When it comes to girls I'm very picky. But I also have a very low self esteem. With girls I feel pike they all must be as beautiful as Kim Kardashian. With girls I also tend to pick them apart, like if this one girl has to big of a forehead I won't like her much, or if her teeth aren't perfect I'm not that attracted.
With guys, I feel like I'm obsessed with their bodies. I've always wanted good pecs, armpit hair, abs, all of that. And when I see guys I tend to automatically be drawn to their stomach region. Then I might look at their legs because I have medium hairy legs, for some reason I've just looked at the legs. I feel like I'm sexually attracted to guys, I would want to give a bj or hj. But when it comes to imagining a future with them, my mind goes blank. I feel like my mind just stops working and I can't think.
When it comes to imagining a future with girls I can. When I daydream I imagine myself doing interviews on tv about m life. And I daydream about talking about my wife, how we raise our kids and what not. I know that's weird it's just what I think about cause I always am bored and have free time.
:oops:
But with girls I can imagine marrying them, but with guys my mind goes blank, as if it's something my mind doesn't know how to register.
I grew up in a catholic home. But that's not why I don't wanna be gay.
When I think about guys who are teenagers. I could imagine having sex with them and doing everything like that. But when I think about kissing a man when I'm older I don't.
On my iPhone 4 I save pictures of guys I think are really good looking. I've even put it as my phone wallpaper, but with girls I don't do that. I just like to look at them in person. One thing I like about guys is when they have abs pecs and all that. And their leg armpit and arm hair is blondish-brown. Kinda like light brown. I feel like I could stare at the pictures of hours. But when it comes with growing old with a man I can't imagine that, but when I think about having sexual stuff with a guy I certainly would. I am just really worked and confused. When it comes to body hair I also want to have light brown body hair, cause I have like super dark black body hair.
____________________________________________________________
So can I imagine growing old with a guy? No
Do I imagine growing old with a girl? Yes
Do I obsess with how good looking a guy is and his physique (with bodyhair)? Yea
What parts do I like on a man vs a woman (or what parts do I look at)?
Woman: butt, boobs, clothes, teeth, hair, hygiene (zigs, smell, look etc)
Man: pecs, abs, armpit hair, teeth, leg hair, biceps and arm muscles, if veins pop out and how the face is
Do I want sexual excitment with a guy more or a girl? Guy
Would I want a boyfriend? I don't think I would, I would just want a guy that's good looking and good physique to do sexual stuff with like how guys call certain friends jerk off buddies
Do I like girls? Yes. But I cannot imagine having much sexual relations with a girl, I can only imagine makin out and her jerking me off and me touching her breasts (when I say I cannot imagine I literally can't, I guess it's cause u mostly watch gay porn)
What type of porn arouses me the most? Gay
Have I ever experimented? No
Do I imagine sharing a house with a man or a woman? A woman
Which is more clear: sharing a future with a man or a woman? A woman
What's it like thinking of a future with a man vs a woman?
Man: very unclear, can't imagine sharing a future with a man, my mind feels as if it stops working when trying to think of a future with a man
Woman: I can imagine having a wedding and marrying a woman, I can imagine raising kids with a woman and growing old with one, I can imagine sharing my feelings with a woman and I can imagine us doing everything together (unlike a man, I can only imagine sexual stuff)
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*1. Is this just hormones?
2. Do I think like this cause I'm that obsessed with getting that perfect body?
*3. What's my sexuality?
*4. What does all this mean?
*5. I've been told going through all this is normal for a teenager, even normal for a straight teenager. Is that true?
*6. Why do I imagine only doing sexual stuff with a man and life long stuff with a woman (like raising kids, growing old, sharing our day together etc)? Is this feeling normal?
7. Do you feel like this?
*8. What's going on with me? Is it normal?
9. Do I feel like this especially cause I've never experimented?
10. Why do I get turned on with gay porn and not regular? (I do with regular but it takes longer, I mostly get turned on with gay)
*11. Is this just being a teenager?
The questions marked with stars are the most important (*) and I'd rather you answer those than the rest, that is if you don't wanna answer the rest. If you answer all of them with good answers you'll he a good reputation from me!:D
Thanks to the vt community for not getting anoid with me and having patience! I'm just very worried when it comes to this subject.
The questions I answered are their to help you understand more. So it isn't in another long paragraph.