Vent vent vent vent vent shoot me in the head

[bleachedteen]

I tried to talk to my mom about getting a piercing. she told me I'd look scary, people would judge me, it's permenant, it's stupid. You are the person who will judge me the most mom, I don't want to associate or be friends with anyone like that anyways. and you think it's stupid. THOSE ARE YOUR OPINIONS.
you held your breath before mentioning the--'mean' look it gives me. go ahead mom, say it makes me look lesbian, the pierced ears the mohawk, you'd only be half wrong. Go ahead bitch shoot down my personal choices about my body and my sexual orientation, but my decisions won't change.
I told her i had plans for my body, she jumped at the reason to attack. do you have something to hide?
She already was glaring at me
NO!
I am going to get piercings, i will get a tattoo when I'm 18. I'M NOT HIDING ANYTHING, WHY WOULD I BE ASKING IF I WAS?

Do you not understand that if I'm lesbian i will be lesbian, if i want piercings i will get piercings, if i want to do drugs i can get drugs, if i want to cut/runaway/scream/swear/join a cult/drink it will happen, you can't prevent that. Anyone can find a way.
Telling me no to body modifications is just another thing we disagree about and I'll just have to wait until I'm 18 and do it without you holding my sweet 'naive' hand.

I ALREADY HAVE ENOUGH OF DAD'S SHIT TO DEAL WITH, MOM. WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IF I TOLD YOU THE THERAPISTS ARE CONSIDERING A DIFFERENT PLACE FOR ME TO LIVE? THERE ARE THINGS OTHER THAN PHYSICAL ABUSE.

I am a 15 year old girl who doesn't need your shit piled onto my fucking shoulder. mom dad, fuck you, fuck your morals, fuck the life you brought me into. I disagree with pretty much every big decision you've ever made. stop pushing your religion on me, stop being homophopic, stop fighting like 2 year olds and thinking you are always right. YOU ARE WRONG, AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOUR FUCKING FIGHTING LIKE TODDLERS AND YELLING. IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT IF I DIE. YOU'LL SEE MY WRISTS SLIT AND I WILL BLAME YOU. YOU GUYS FUCKED UP EVERYTHING.
I THINK OF DAD BEING IN A CAR CRASH I WISH YOU WOULD GET DIVORCED. I. WISH. I. WAS. DEAD. BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS. HOW WE WORRY ABOUT MONEY, YOU YELL AND MANIPULATE EVERYTHING.
IT'S ALREADY HARD ENOUGH WHEN I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU GUYS. MAYBE YOU SHOULD JUST SHOOT ME YOURSELF.




i have dreams of slitting my wrists, shooting myself in the head, taking pills, drowning.
ITS.ALL.I.THINK.OF.ALL.I.DREAM.OF

[NightFighter]

Ok, im going to be the devil's advocate.

You don't seem to think about your mum and dad's point of view at all.

Dont get me wrong. Its your body, your hairstyle, your choice full stop but she made you. She doesn't want to see you in any additional pain. She might think that you will become a victim because of the radical style that you are choosing. Which is a legit reason. She may think that you will, in time, regret what you will do to your body. Also, legit reason. She may just generally disagree with any sort of self-mutilation. Whatever her reasons, she believes in them evidently just as strongly as you believe in yours. Atleast respect her point of view. She has done so much for you that you should listen to her and respect where she is coming from. You are her's. She has raised you and she wants to protect you. You can't find fault in that.

Understand that you are actually only 15 years old. You may not feel like it but you are a youth. A child. Her child. She still has authority over you. Accept it. When you are 18 the rules change but for now she makes them and you need to abide by them. You can't do what you like. Legally you can't. At home you can't. Its for a reason. Youth's make decisions they shouldn't. Get into situations they shouldn't. They don't even know it until something either goes terribly wrong or they grow up and realise. You aren't an adult. Just accept it for now.

I want to know why you want to die. Why do you feel like life is so terrible that you want to abandon it? Why do your mum and dad fight?

Have you ever spoken to your parents, calmly and rationally about how you feel?

[Solvez18]

what about the fact she created you and she probably thinks it's not right to change what was given to you.

[bleachedteen]

the reason my mom doesn't want me to change my appearance is because it makes me look butch, and she personally judges people who look different. my mom and dad fight about money, cars, clothes, chores, people, ideas. They like fighting and my dad can NEVER be wrong, he's always fucking right no matter what. I want to end my life because I have extreme anxiety, my dad is emotionally abusive, my home life is unstable financially and mentally, and because I can't keep friends because I hate myself.

I understand that I am young, but age is not something you can judge by. This will obviously just make me seem MORE like I'm young and naive. But I am my own self and more independent and able than most 18-27 years olds I know. I understand certain things should be restrained from younger people, but the fact that you bring that up as a point pisses me off. People should not be judged or treated differently by age. The only things that should affect this are how a person acts and thinks, otherwise young kids would have no way to build maturity and no room to grow.