Troubles with school and no help!

[Dimentio]

I have been hiding it for a while now, But going to school anyway i will be aughing and joking then the minute i step in the gates, My face drops, And other the holidays people were saying i am funny and nice, Now i am back at school, They said "Kieran you look ill and your just depressive lately!"
Like that is true, Going to school is a mental and physical thing! Like the depression and the anger and the Anxiety going on inside of me but then the knowing every step your going is making it worse and jsut twoards bullying.
I am kinda ok with the main school factor, But, P.E. Is my main issue, I have to do Basketball, But me and the teachers in that section, We have had our past none to say the least and the people in my section they bully me and i cannot play Basketball from my height and my scaredness of a ball bounsing around also from the fact the other kids bully me.
Like i have SUCH bad memories from the school, I now pull faces from them memories or murmor and just feel awkward inside, And i know i will be like this forever because of it! School and me, It really was not meant to be unless it is just my school.
So on Wednesday i went to the learning Mentor but she said it was jsut the one off and tomorrow as it is last lessons i am kinda hoping my mum will let me stay off, But i have asked my mum to see if she can ring up and say could i do something else she said she is not helping me, Same for my Learning Mentor.
Just the thought of going to school mainly P.E. Tomorrow, I get an Anxiety attack, And i feel stressed and depressed! There are some teachers who are really worried about me as i do not eat no more same for sleep and it has been a long time since i have felt safe and happy at school, But they are minor teachers so no matter what they say nothing happens!
Say if you was in my position, Would you keep going on and on, Or would you get on with it and take a literal ball to the face two times a lesson? And just go in to school like i am and deal with the none eating and none sleeping?

[Exo212]

Is there anyone you know in your PE class that you can hang out with during the class period? ("strength in numbers"). It sounds to me that you have not found your "niche", the group of people that make you feel the most comfortable. It took me my whole middle school and freshmen year of high school to find what I call: "my *real* friends.". My origional circle of friends was the "Beautiful People" (sports, good-looking, popular, lots of parties....basicly doing it all, and well.) but I never truly felt comfortable with them, during lunch I would feel as if I was living a lie (might have been a side-effect of being in the closet...) then one day I decided to go see my other friends from 6th grade that I didnt really hang out with anymore. And we hit it off, I felt like it was the place I should have been all along, and it was. While I still maintain a friendship with the "Beautiful People" (you don't get much bulling when your friends with "them") I mostly spend time with my new circle of friends. The moral? Find the people who unconditionally love you as a friend and would never see you change. If you do that, I think you will begin to see school as the wonderful(albeit...odd) place that it is, and hopefully eat and sleep more!

[Dimentio]

Well school is nearly over intieraly for me now, But i am known as the mystery guy in the groups, Because the poprular and out going kids all know me and are fine with me but also bully me and would never be with me as of my looks, But then i sometimes mingle with them and all the other lot, But their not friends, They are just people i say hello to from time to time, I don't see no one out of school, And in school, I do not speak to anyone, Like i fount out today some of my 'Friends' Get together and can say nasty things about me or 'It' As they call me, There is just no support and no one i can trsut except form my online friends who can be the same sometimes, So that is why i try my best to be all happy and positive and make friends who i come in contact with, But as you can see, It does not aways work like that :(

[jimmyboy92]

I have been in your position keiran (you actually seem quite a lot like me after reading several of your threads!) and infact I still do the same now, I still go to college everyday, after spending all morning in the loo, all night awake worrying, and not being able to eat breakfast due to the anxiety. This all makes me really depressed and has ruined my school and college life so I would advise you, if you can, to do something about it before it's too late!! Putting up with crap and carrying on doesn't help at all.....and now I'm in my last year of college, I can see this isn't gonna get better on its own.

[Biscuithead13]

I have been in your posistion before too :) I am currently in 10th grade but middle school, especially 8th grade, was miserable for me. I was bullied for countless reasons ranging from my size, how I talked, what I wore, how I acted and just about everything in between. I remember I only hung out with people outside of school twice that year.....I was at rock bottom. Now however, I've begun to find some friends who make me happy and to be honest, it is during the tough times that you find out who your real friends are. My best friends has been friends with me since kindergarten, and I am 15 now. We have both endured a lot of bullying together throughout school, but trust me once you find a group of people you are comfortable with, it will make life so much easier. It will just take some time. ;)

[ben...]

I have a similar situation as Exo2012. I hang out with the "popular" crew. All very good looking and fit. Me, ehh not so much. We really do have fun together but I feel like I don't belong. Sadly though I don't have and old friends at my high school because I moved a year ago. Also, P.E. I hated. But you can get through it. It was awful, especially when you had to do something in front of everyone, but just go along with it. Try and find friends in there. :)