Rant, I guess.

[screamtobeheard]

I'm having a day. Maybe it's because I've been sick for 9 days, and I'm slowly losing my mind. Again. Whatever.

I have the strongest urge to just drop everything. Take my laptop and my iPod and my car, and drive and drive until I find somewhere new. New faces. New sounds. New sights. New everything. I'll get a new job, cut my hair, dye my hair, change my name, everything. I want to start new. The only thing that's stopping me is that I don't want to destroy my family and friends. My boyfriend. I love him with all my heart, I really do, but sometimes I just feel like it isn't right. He is perfect for me and sweet and caring, and he loves me so much, and I feel so bad for thinking this, but what if it's not right? I love him, I do. But there are so many things I've always wanted to do that I can't in a relationship like mine. It's serious, and I don't want to ruin it, but at the same time, I want out. I want out of everything. I want freedom. I want to run and have no one chase me. I want...I don't even know what I really want.

I guess this is just a rant. I'm really confused.

[DarkNick]

I'm having a day. Maybe it's because I've been sick for 9 days, and I'm slowly losing my mind. Again. Whatever.

I have the strongest urge to just drop everything. Take my laptop and my iPod and my car, and drive and drive until I find somewhere new. New faces. New sounds. New sights. New everything. I'll get a new job, cut my hair, dye my hair, change my name, everything. I want to start new. The only thing that's stopping me is that I don't want to destroy my family and friends. My boyfriend. I love him with all my heart, I really do, but sometimes I just feel like it isn't right. He is perfect for me and sweet and caring, and he loves me so much, and I feel so bad for thinking this, but what if it's not right? I love him, I do. But there are so many things I've always wanted to do that I can't in a relationship like mine. It's serious, and I don't want to ruin it, but at the same time, I want out. I want out of everything. I want freedom. I want to run and have no one chase me. I want...I don't even know what I really want.

I guess this is just a rant. I'm really confused.

Whenever you feel better go outside or sit next to the window during a rainy night and think all these...
It'll make you feel better, you will have run away with that way (for a moment but you'll feel better I'm sure about it ;) ! )

[screamtobeheard]

Whenever you feel better go outside or sit next to the window during a rainy night and think all these...
It'll make you feel better, you will have run away with that way (for a moment but you'll feel better I'm sure about it ;) ! )

Thank you. (: I'll try doing that.

[Spook]

I know this feeling; like you have everything you really want and need; but you want even more. You know what helped me? This is going to sound totally out-there random, but...ziplining. Ziplining is this feeling of freedom, weightlessness, diluted thrill. It leaves you breathless, sort of makes you feel complete. It cured my mom of depression, I as well; and my mom and sister lost alot of their fear of heights. That sounded super loony but really, you should try it. Other than that, all I can think of is travel. Take some time off and go places. But I still say ziplining. :P

[screamtobeheard]

Ziplining...that's a thought. Sometimes what seems to be the most out there solution can be the best. I'll look into it. And I definitely think I'm gonna need to try the travel thing. Thank you!