Guilty

[XxfakexX]

Just a question but does anyone else feel guilty about eating? Like having a biscuit and not being able to look at yourself and panicking. It's pretty much stopped me eating recently, which know i should, and i feel like i'v let myself down.

[screamtobeheard]

Yes, I know exactly how that feels.

May I ask if you've been diagnosed with an eating disorder, or if you've just recently started these habits, etc.?

[XxfakexX]

It's being going for a couple of years (i used to throw up) but i haven't properly been diagnosed. I'm scared of what peoples opinion would be.

[screamtobeheard]

Alright, love, here's the deal. You need to talk to someone about it. I know you don't want to, but I really think you should. A doctor would be best, but you could talk to a teacher, a parent, a friend, or anyone you think could help you. You should not feel guilty for eating. It's normal. It's necessary to life. I don't know a lot of details about your eating, but it sounds like it could be the start of a disorder, if nothing else, and I think you should try to work against it before it takes over your life. Trust me when I say, an eating disorder is not something you want to live with.

[flumeendeavors]

ALWAYS. I go a few days without eating and then suddenly ill allow myself one little thing like fruit or something so its healthy! Then immediately after i go to the mirror and look at myself with hatred and disgust. I usually end up cutting myself after ive realized what ive done.
No worries darling...you are not alone.