Wondering323
January 3rd, 2012, 09:50 AM
First, some context; I'm a 17 year old male teen suffering from constant paranoia; I worry and obsess about numerous things like my sexuality, if I or a close one have a disease, if a terrible disaster might happen, the rapture, etc
My current obsession is wondering if it's possible for me to somehow gradually become transgender? I've always felt I was comfortable as a male, I'm secure in my heterosexuality now, and it's only yesterday that these paranoid thoughts began.
I first wondered what it's like to be a girl, out of a sense to see how different it feels, but I'm afraid I'll somehow start to 'like it' and stop being wanting to be male, which I don't want. I read that with some transgenders the thoughts used to come and go gradually, and that REALLY worries me. Is this all denial? Were 17 years of living happily as a boy denial?
I've never felt as a child that I was born in the wrong body, but with what I've read I don't know what to think :(
My current obsession is wondering if it's possible for me to somehow gradually become transgender? I've always felt I was comfortable as a male, I'm secure in my heterosexuality now, and it's only yesterday that these paranoid thoughts began.
I first wondered what it's like to be a girl, out of a sense to see how different it feels, but I'm afraid I'll somehow start to 'like it' and stop being wanting to be male, which I don't want. I read that with some transgenders the thoughts used to come and go gradually, and that REALLY worries me. Is this all denial? Were 17 years of living happily as a boy denial?
I've never felt as a child that I was born in the wrong body, but with what I've read I don't know what to think :(