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Glenn
May 23rd, 2007, 10:51 AM
okay so in the latest copy of pc gamer under the opinions page there was this very interesting article i think gamers and others like myself shud read:

(By the way this was not made or personally written by me)


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You asked if gaming had made my life better. Well, in some ways i guess it save mine.

I suffer from severe depression. Four years ago i became so suicidal that i was sectioned under the Mental Health Act and had to go into care. At the mere age of 14 it was possibly the worst point of my life, having my freedom taken away from me simply because i had lost the will to live, being forced to take medicine that made me ill and eat poorly cooked NHS-funded food.

It was hell. Once the police were called because a patient friend of mine was cutting herself and wouldn't give the nursing staff her knife, another time i vomited 11 times in one day after i went on hunger strike and refused my medicine. There really was nothing to get out of bed for. After two overdoses and bringing a train to a halt after waiting on the railway tracks i really was on the edge of losing it completely.

However it was during those months i discovered gaming. I can remember spending long hours poring over screenshots in my first copy of pc gamer, and reading about the future of games. A future that made me want to stay alive that little bit longer. I spent many a night playing tony hawks pro skater 4 and timesplitters 2, being taught the ins and out of each map by my fellow patients and spending hours trying to nab the top score and high score. It took my mind off my otherwise painfull existance. It was my escapism. It took my mind off my otherwise painful existance.I remember specifically putting offa suicide attempt because a fellow patient unexpectadly challenged me to a game of burnout 2. if i hadnt been a gamer i may well have died that night.

You see, computer gaming not only kept me sane during the dark days of my existance. it might even have contribuated to why im still alive. Quite simply, gaming did more to help me that any of the so called therapies or medication i was on. I am looking forward to the day i can get my PCG subscription paid for by the NHS.
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Hyper
May 23rd, 2007, 03:15 PM
I think we all know this, but in a way gaming makes me hate myself a bit more

Sage
May 23rd, 2007, 05:20 PM
Games are a great way to deal with stress.

Makod
May 23rd, 2007, 10:52 PM
I think a screen shot is in order... hold on a sec.
Edit:

http://i102.photobucket.com/albums/m108/Makod_2006/pwn.jpg


(That's my latest playtime)

I'm going at a steady rate of ~6-7 hours a day; and loving every fucking second.

I know in the message it says May 15th, but that's when the linkshell officer wrote that message, it appears every time I log in till they change it.

Hyper
May 23rd, 2007, 11:02 PM
I think a screen shot is in order... hold on a sec.
Edit:

http://i102.photobucket.com/albums/m108/Makod_2006/pwn.jpg


(That's my latest playtime)

I'm going at a steady rate of ~6-7 hours a day; and loving every fucking second.


Only 140 days? ;P, I use to play 10-15 hours a day, now I just sit at the comp 5-24 hours a day

Makod
May 23rd, 2007, 11:06 PM
Only 140 days? ;P, I use to play 10-15 hours a day, now I just sit at the comp 5-24 hours a day

I've only had the game 2 years ._. (|Please forgive me.|) And that's only one game. lol

Also, how the hell you manage 10-15 hours a day? When I said ~6-7 I meant school days. XD

Which game did you play 10-15 hours a day on by the way?

(gonna have to start running home faster so I can compete with the godly likes of you.)



Edit; commenting on the OP: Yes, gaming is a way to cope with depression and such, I guess it's the lesser of two evils.

Hyper
May 23rd, 2007, 11:25 PM
I've only had the game 2 years ._. (|Please forgive me.|) And that's only one game. lol

Also, how the hell you manage 10-15 hours a day? When I said ~6-7 I meant school days. XD

Which game did you play 10-15 hours a day on by the way?

(gonna have to start running home faster so I can compete with the godly likes of you.)



Edit; commenting on the OP: Yes, gaming is a way to cope with depression and such, I guess it's the lesser of two evils.


I've currently been behind the computer for 20 hours or so.. And I do this because I am homeschooled, but don't worry back when I wen't to school I still managed about 10-15 hours a day as I slept usually 0-6 hours a day

Oh edit: I use to play SC/BW, CSS, NWN2, DC 10 hours or so a day, varieing

Glenn
May 24th, 2007, 03:16 AM
erm what game is that screen shot from ? i dont recognize

Whisper
May 24th, 2007, 03:39 AM
games are great
I used to use them as an escape all the time
when i was lil I used to hide in books
I used to day dream about my heros when I was stuck in Zacks shitty basement
I'd just leave, zone out
they call it dissociation....I think.....


Then we moved away from him
But also away from my home, my school, my friends, the ocean...my life

So I started reading more and more
to the point where i'd read a 200page chapter book in a day and a half

Animorphs was my fav series
I read every single one

I had no real friends
My parents owned the grocery store at the time so when my mum wasn't drinking and my parents wern't screaming there heads off they'd be well...at work
constantly
I was still in public school and got picked on constantly cause I was the freak from the island

so I'd hide in my books
then my depression started to effect my memmory
It like....went on strike
I couldnt remember anything I did or was doing
I couldnt remember the top of the page when I'd get to the bottom and i'd have to start all over again....I couldnt read anymore
I was devestated cause I had nowhere to go
My safe haven was gone

Eventually I switched to games

I LOVED my N64 Starwars Pod racing, Super Mario, Smash Brothers etc...
I'd play them for HOURS trying to beat this level, unlock that player, learn those special tricks
Then my Xbox Halo, Fable (I LOVED Fable, it let me make my own lil world)
Now I have a 360 and it still helps allot

It lets you forget all the bullshit if only for a second

Makod
May 24th, 2007, 07:31 AM
erm what game is that screen shot from ? i dont recognize

Final Fantasy XI