Visualizing cutting.

[dark_soul777]

Sometimes when I'm feeling really bad and I'm having to try really hard to avoid cutting, I can almost feel my blade. I visualize it and its just SO vivid. I can almost feel it, In my minds eye I can even see it. I have no control over this whatsoever.
Is this normal? Does this happen to anybody else?

[Mutibann]

Idk if it's normal but it happens to me pretty much daily.

[AppealToReason]

Yes, this happens to me when I don't SH for a few days.
Sometimes even when I do SH that day. I consider this an urge and, well, urges can be a bitch.

[Alexithymia]

Yes, this actually happens a lot. It's soothing, really. It sort of releases the urge of cutting, but isn't the best antidote. Really, it's more harmful because your mind keeps thinking about cutting.

[FullyAlive]

as others have said, yeah it seems pretty normal. I visualize cutting and the cuts etc pretty much involuntarily so its not nice. But its but abnormal.

[Bath]

Yep, especially when I'm in school and can't cut.

You're not alone. -hugs-

[dark_soul777]

Thanks, It's good to know that I'm not the only one.
The longer I go without cutting (25 days at the moment), the more vivid this becomes. Last night I had a dream, and in it I cut. It was one of the most vivid dreams I've ever had and I'm still trying to convince myself it wasn't real, even though I have no new cuts :/

[georgiamay]

I visualise it a lot. Sometimes it triggers me, and I have to concentrate so much to not cut, or it soothes me, which is rare, but sometimes I can imagine the release, and that calms me down a bit.

I've had really vivid dreams where I'm hurting myself as well. Even though I've checked my body and there are no new cuts, I still walk around that day feeling guilty because I think I did.

[welcome_to_chaos]

well..the doc says i have a form of ocd that is based around cutting...and evn though i havent in like 5 months...i still do have the urges...and i visualize it in the most graphic forms...

[Princess Ariel]

This happens to me on a daily basis. It makes me feel better.
It's better to visualize than to cut in my opinion.