:( so upset

[Fiending_the_freedom]

three months ago i broke uo with chris.
a month ago i started goinmg back out with an old boyfriend who has been one of my closest friends.

i was such a bitch to chris after we broke up.
although he did call me like 8 times a day everyday for like the next two weeks:|

it never hit me untill last night.
when i ran into him.
he was on a date.
i knew the gril a little,
she was on his lap.
it was really awkward.
then i met up with mike nad he was actign all distant.
[but he really loves me i know that]
and then when i got home i was so upset and depressed
then this morning my bf asked what was wrong and i told her [&& ONLKY her] that it bothered me to see chris with another girl.
she said this:
'well you never really got to feel the breakup, you bloked it out with drinking and doing all the things he didnt want you to. now its finally hitting you"
and i agree.
but i cant do this.
i cant feel this upset over chris while i'm with mike.
i'm so confused, and i have NO right to be upset.
i dotn know what to do.

[invisiblegirl]

u have every right 2 b upset u cared 4 him, and love is so damn complicated. it hurts when ur with them cuz ur afrde that their going 2 leave and when u leave them, it hurts like HELL. u feel like u can,t go on, like ur life is over and u'll never find somone else. but like ur bf said u have 2 take time 2 get over 1 b4 u canmove on. but there will always be a special place in ur heart 4 them. but trust me eventualy, u'll move on.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

thanks that acually helps a lot.

[Aηdy]

One of my friends is going through a simular thing, and i told her that she will eventually manage to move on and find somebody else, even though in the mean time its going to be tough, but if you get through it you will be fine. You will be ok eventually hun.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

i know, its just really hard, espessially since i broke up with him, and i really really loved him. he was the greatest thing that happened to me, adn i threw him away, for i cant even remeber. and now its too late.