He. Loves. Me.

[Toasteroven]

Hi, ok so I'm 16, a guy who is prob bi (haven't really decided yet)
My best friend is 15, a guy who doesn't talk so god only knows what he is.

In June we did everything but full sex. He had told me he really like me and I have liked him since jan 2011. Things began in April and gradually went up and down and then we got to June. We did it again a week later and he stopped half way through and asked if I wanted to stop. I was gutted. The next day I went on a 3 week holiday so I couldn't really speak to him.

When I got back things went downhill over the month of August and by mid September he hated me. Gradually I have been trying to work out why because he wouldn't tell me why. Then after many ups and downs in November, I asked him if the reason he hated me was because he still liked me and didn't want to be gay so he tried to get me out of his life. He said no but since then there has been a lot of flirting, touching and he is becoming like things where in April.

I'm 90% sure that he likes me and I am in love with him. I want to spend my life with him. To be honest, he is the only guy I like. If it wasn't for him I'd be straight. Because of how much I love him he Is the only person on my mind long enough to be a proper crush.

I have told him I liked him before and all but he says no he doesnt like me back but from his body language I know he is lying. I really want to confront him and ask him flat out. But the thing is I nearly always get nervous and chicken out or when I do ask him I feel like shit after cause he dennies it and it embarrasses me. I know this sounds like a no brainer, that I should give up, but the thing is, I am the only person who can understand what he's thinking and I have been correct about everything in the past about him.

What I am asking is what should I do? Please don't be harsh and don't just post 'give up' I need a reason because of the way my head works and the only person who knows is him and he is the only one who can talk me out of it but he doesn't know how much I love him, but I know he has a hunch.

Thank you so much :)

[Apollo.]

I think you should just tell him exactly how you feel, if he loves you he wont hurt you once he knows how much you care, Im in the same situation kind of but I have no clue if the guy likes me back:/

[prob1996]

I understand your situation because back in June of last year I was kinda there. I fell in love with my best friend. We always experimented when we were younger and feelings developed. I knew that I loved him and told him that a couple of times. He considers himself bi and wouldn't admit to "gay" feelings but sure loved to mess around. I tried talking to him alot in the beginning and it seemed to go nowhere. I suspect this is the case with you too.
My advice is if you want to continue messing around, then do so, have and be safe!!! BUT you might have realize that it may take quite awhile for him to admit his true feelings (if there are any to begin with). Stay communicated with him and talk but take it slow. Talk to him and get him to discover things in baby steps. Like, ask him if he really likes the sexual stuff, he says yes, just be like ok and that's it. Don't try to get him to profess his everalsting love. Then maybe later see if he considers himself bi or maybe strait curious, see what says and then that's it. Small things that he can. It'll be tough but he'll get more comfortable and then may just surprise you one day.
Good luck, hang in there, and I hope this helps! Let me know how it goes.

and if you want to talk more, feel free to VM or PM anytime!

[Toasteroven]

Thanks for the advice, I'll think about talking to him again. The thing about the sexual stuff is that he ended it and didnt give me a reason. He hated me without reason and like I said when I said was it cause he didn't want to be gay his feelings of hate just vanished.
I don't want to come out as gay and I'm. It even comfortable being bi but if I had someone along side with me then I'd be able to do it. I'm pretty sure he feels the same way.
Recently there's nothing to talk about. We seriously have talked about everything. There's nothing left to discuss and when there is it normally only last like ten mins. If anyone has ideas of conversation starters that'd be great as well.
A thing that I have been doing in the past 4 or so months is telling him stories about myself and asking for his help on situations which I know he could put himself into like fancying a guy and not knowing what to do etc. by doing this I hope that he will realise that his advice would work with him.
I'm also pretty confident that he is bi or ghat because in the past he has had a couple of girlfriends but 3 girls have asked him out or told him that they like him and he has turned them all down. He didn't used to do that. He would at least try it. And then he goes and tells me he likes someone but he can't tell me and that I'll find out if anything happens. I know everything about him cause he has told me and I can only think of one reason why he isn't telling me this. That its me. I know everything about him. Who he has fancied on the past to the colour of boxers he wears. So I don't get why he won't say.
My reason though for not asking him is incase he says no again which he probably wil because the chances of me being able to get through the walls he has built are slim ATM. I am starting to get the fear that I'm growing away from him and I really don't want that. I want to spend the restof my life with him. People say that when you are young you don't know what you want, well I do. I want him. More than anything in the world. An I can plan a life with him in ways I can't with anyone else, male or female.

Thanks again for the replies