Wanting to Die

[Thylacine]

Most nights when I go to bed I usually think "I hope I don't wake up". This is a genuine thought. I don't want to be alive. I see it as a curse. But I would NEVER kill myself. I must make that clear. I am not going to kill myself. But I do genuinely want to die, not be, not exist, etc. These thoughts depress me even though I would never act on them. I have really low self esteem and confidence AKA I hate myself. Is anyone else in my situation and if so how do/did you deal with it?

If you want more information about my situation read this:
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=123388

Thanks.

[Jonni]

Yes, I feel like that sometimes.
I don't really deal with it I guess, I've/i'm suffered/suffering from severe depression and self harm. But I kind of just think about the future, and that I AM here for a reason.

[Race2mars]

I feel like the same way as you my friend. I feel hopeless and wish i could go unconscious forever. Honestly, i cope with it my choking myself until i black out (not fully but until i feel numbness in my arms)

[Carlyle]

I get this at times too. I just try to look at the parts of my life that are good. If there is something bad, I try to improve it if I can. It gets better with time, don't worry. Best of luck to you!

[Amaryllis]

Liam, if you won't kill yourself(which is a great thing. We're all very proud of you.) and you most likely will not die any time soon, why live through the moments wishing to die? Life is much too long to be spent in misery and it doesn't have to be. External forces do not control how anything effects you.

Some people go numb, some become victims, some blame others and some partially recover but stay stuck at a certain stage and never truly break free. But some will thrive. They will take whatever situation they're in, learn from it and grow stronger.

Be a survivor, Liam. Make the decision to take control of your life and overcome all the hurdles. Choose to make the best of the life you have. Start by telling yourself you -can- be happy and you will be. Next time shit happens, ask yourself what you can do differently, what you've learned and how you can get through it.

Life is what you make it.

[Thylacine]

Liam, if you won't kill yourself(which is a great thing. We're all very proud of you.) and you most likely will not die any time soon, why live through the moments wishing to die? Life is much too long to be spent in misery and it doesn't have to be. External forces do not control how anything effects you.

Some people go numb, some become victims, some blame others and some partially recover but stay stuck at a certain stage and never truly break free. But some will thrive. They will take whatever situation they're in, learn from it and grow stronger.

Be a survivor, Liam. Make the decision to take control of your life and overcome all the hurdles. Choose to make the best of the life you have. Start by telling yourself you -can- be happy and you will be. Next time shit happens, ask yourself what you can do differently, what you've learned and how you can get through it.

Life is what you make it.

Hey Thank You a lot. That really helped. I guess focusing on positive aspects of my life is the thing to do. But sometimes life is so dark. I guess I just have to avoid those situations and focus on the positive.

[abdelgadoo]

I also think that every night, I've thought about suicide but I'm too scared to do it. I feel so alone because I can't really talk to anyone about how I feel, my parents are going through a lot themselves and they usually think I exaggerate when I tell them how I feel, they even say I feel bad because I want to so I don't know what to do!! it's like I'm stuck in this situation and I can't get out.. I'm sorry you have to go through this and I really hope you can feel better soon.

[unusedaccount]

To some, life is a curse. To some, life is a gift.

[xarvon1412]

I get exactly what you mean. I don't think I'm quite as strong as you when it comes to suicide though...I don't know. It's just so hard, and honestly I don't even feel anymore.

[Ethan1369]

I feel exactly the same way, I never feel like anyone appreciates me and that it would be better off if I just disappeared. Most everyday I think of different ways that I could die and I have even thought about suicide and have come close to attempting it before. The way I help deal with these thoughts is by whenever I start thinking these things I try causing myself pain to distract myself.

[Texas warrior]

You have just got to learn to except who you are. I like who I am but there are things I would like to change that I can't, but I can except that. Life will get essayer if you can except yourself, not like, but except.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Ive dealt with this before until something happened last year that flipped my mood from wanting to die , like what you said, to actually attempting suicide. I would just avoid things that will make you overly depressed so you don't get to that point.

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