Relapse :/

[Ace_of_Spades]

So.. i haven't been cutting for a couple of months, but i finally had a major relapse tonight. I was on Facebook and my friends made me go into a group chat with 3 other people, one of who is a really close friend of mine. Anyways, i looked at the earlier conversation they were having before i entered the chat and it was of one of my friend saying to my close friend 'he really wants you, you know' and stuff like that. And the other person just kept referring to me as 'the gay'. I just got so angry at this, that i can never have like really close friends, because people always assume i'm trying to be with them, and i even told my friend, who was saying i wanted the other, that i didn't want him, but she said i did anyways :/ So i ended up cutting myself a lot.. and so there goes all that hard work. Now i have to start again, for about the 5th time >.>

[Fiction]

So what, you relapsed once? Don't beat yourself up about it we all relapse at times. Instead of focussing on a minutes weakness focus on the months that you've been strong. The fact that you're willing to get up and start again shows your real strength. The fact that you don't want to give up shows that you are going to get there in the end.

As for your friends, just ignore them. If they want to be like that then let them, they're not worth your time.

[bena3217]

stay strong! cutting is never the answer :) it only maked you feel better of a few minutes and then it only hurts...rather do positive things...watch tv...go for a walk or a run...just do something that keeps you busy and your mind off cutting...just because you cut once doesnt mean you have to do it again...i know you are strong enough..ya you have to start over...but next time you want to cut...remeber all the pain it brought you! and that its not a option because it will only make things worse! you say you have been clean for a while now...and you cut again...you feel bad right? so why do you want to put yourself through that pain again? you dont deserve it! you are a good person and dont deserve to go through pain all the time! your friends are assholes! they should accept you for who you are...and if they dont...they not good friends! rather be with friends who understand you...that say things behind your back

[Ace_of_Spades]

Thanks guys :) I don't plan to go back to cutting, and i never really planned to do it last night, just kinda happened >.> I'm sure i can stop again, but i miss it. Oh well though, i can live without it. As far as my friends go, i thought they were good friends and that they had my back, but apparently i was mistaken. I guess that's why it really got to me, because i trusted them so much.

[StoppingTime]

So.. i haven't been cutting for a couple of months, but i finally had a major relapse tonight. I was on Facebook and my friends made me go into a group chat with 3 other people, one of who is a really close friend of mine. Anyways, i looked at the earlier conversation they were having before i entered the chat and it was of one of my friend saying to my close friend 'he really wants you, you know' and stuff like that. And the other person just kept referring to me as 'the gay'. I just got so angry at this, that i can never have like really close friends, because people always assume i'm trying to be with them, and i even told my friend, who was saying i wanted the other, that i didn't want him, but she said i did anyways :/ So i ended up cutting myself a lot.. and so there goes all that hard work. Now i have to start again, for about the 5th time >.>

You didn't fail, not even close to it actually. You relapsed, and honestly, it really isn't something that you should feel overly guilty about. Part of success is hitting roadblocks along the way, and that's fine. Just about no one can quit completely without having a slip up, so don't worry about it.

And don't take anything they said personally. People are always too quick to judge make assumptions, and make things up so they can feel a little better. You know what they are saying has no truth to it, and I bet you some of them do as well. There will always be those who you wanted to be able to trust, but then you catch them doing something like this, which really is horrible, and I bet they know it.

Hope you have been doing better, and keep us posted.

God Luck! :)

~StoppingTime/Steven

[kelseypr]

I agree with the above posts.

Even though its easier said than done... Try and focus on the positive in this!

You went 5 MONTHS without cutting... Thats a big deal! You're a strong person!

I'm sorry this happened to you... If you ever need to talk, I'm open:)