I feel as if I'm a freak...

[Cicero]

So tbh I used to/still battle with deppression. I have no friends what so ever. Im a Sophomore in High school. And I've been to about 4 schools in 5 years! I keep changing in the hope of becoming liked! At first I'm really liked, but I'm very shy. I usually don't talk to everyone, but I'm nice. Then I become weird. By now I know theirs something wrong with me. Idk what to do though. I know people say be yourself, but I have been and it makes me weird!

I also believe I don't look that handsome. I hear compliments from my parents friends all the time, they all either say: Wow you have such a handsome son, you are so well behaved, if you were 20 years younger I would date you (saying it to me), and many others. But I feel like I'm very ugly, I feel more like I'm Ugly-Average.

I've asked many questions on self esteem and looking confident and the 2 things people say are: put your head up and don't look down and have good posture. I do both of those. How can I boost my self esteem? And how can I be more confident? How can I practice being normal (tips that a psychiatrist might say?)

[DarkNick]

Well there's a way to do that.
BELIEVE in your self! Increase your self esteem by start feeling handsome and smart!
Start sports,join clubs etc. to start socializing with other students.
Trust me your face will look different after the day that you'll start feeling happy!
Think about why other ppl say to you that you are handsome, don't just turn it down!
And about the ''how an I practice being normal'' question... There's no such a thing as being a normal person.We all have our flaws and our charismatic gifts.
Many people like me but hell yeah I'm insane and nobody knows it (I don't hide myself from others).
You are who you want to be, you are who you believe that you are (at least in the eyes of the others...)

Tips from someone that has been through what you're writing here buddy again and again for many years... ;)

[Camazot]

wen i was in elementary i had no friends then in middle school i joined a sport and it helped a lot my sister always told me to walk with conviction and purpose and to always have my chin up i did that to and it made me feel better but when i joined cc (like i said earlier) i had a purpose and that was to do better in that sport and after a while people started being my friend and ever since then its just always gotten better
and the funny thing is is that i never wanted to do a sport but when i did life just got better

so i guess im trying to say is apply yourself into something like a sport or a club even if it doesnt appeal to you completely maybe it will help you like it did me ...and dont give up okay :)

[Ace_of_Spades]

I used to be kinda depressed too, so i pretty much cut off my connections with most of my friends. When i got better, though, i found that you just have to be kinda fun, lol. Like now i just make a lot of jokes, and at times i can be awkward, but i've learned to turn that into something to benefit from. Like, i play into it now, i've kinda turned it into a joke, and made it seem intentional, even when it's not. So really, just try to be fun and spontaneous and people will definitely enjoy your company.