Dimentio
December 22nd, 2011, 04:39 PM
Well me and my friend are both 15 and he is one of the two people i personally told i am gay, He was the nice one about it but is slowly getting further and further frome me :(
But i was looking at some 'Videos' And thought i saw him, So i watched it, And later realised, It was him, So without my friends seeing the rest of the video and just him with clothes on, I said "Isn't that (Friends Name)!?" They said DEFFINITLY! But in that video, He was Masturbating.
Now i feel awkward as he is my second closet friend, So should i confront him about it or should i just let him know i did not find it?
What would you do in my position?
Edit:
Hey guys, I need to add in this edit, It is kind of important, And it will help me, My friend started speaking to me in the morning, And i broke down in tears and said i had to go (It was on Facebook so he did not know i was crying), And now, I do not think i can look at him or talk to him again, All day i have been crying and feeling a HUGE regret and anger in me for watching the video and being turnt on by it, And also for that fact that, I cannot see my friend the same way again.
I now feel like the only friends i have is Internet friends as no one else speaks to me, I just been crying all day now because of him who was my last real life friend and also jsut from loosing him and seeing that video, I just cannot stop crying over it, I do not know what to do no more! My depression and anger is getting worse because of this, And like, I also have Selective Dyslexia but i do not like talking about it, I normally call it Dyslexia when i do, But it gets wrse when i am sad or angry, So i am shocked my writting is not too bad right now, but some of my PM's have been VERY bad.
But i was looking at some 'Videos' And thought i saw him, So i watched it, And later realised, It was him, So without my friends seeing the rest of the video and just him with clothes on, I said "Isn't that (Friends Name)!?" They said DEFFINITLY! But in that video, He was Masturbating.
Now i feel awkward as he is my second closet friend, So should i confront him about it or should i just let him know i did not find it?
What would you do in my position?
Edit:
Hey guys, I need to add in this edit, It is kind of important, And it will help me, My friend started speaking to me in the morning, And i broke down in tears and said i had to go (It was on Facebook so he did not know i was crying), And now, I do not think i can look at him or talk to him again, All day i have been crying and feeling a HUGE regret and anger in me for watching the video and being turnt on by it, And also for that fact that, I cannot see my friend the same way again.
I now feel like the only friends i have is Internet friends as no one else speaks to me, I just been crying all day now because of him who was my last real life friend and also jsut from loosing him and seeing that video, I just cannot stop crying over it, I do not know what to do no more! My depression and anger is getting worse because of this, And like, I also have Selective Dyslexia but i do not like talking about it, I normally call it Dyslexia when i do, But it gets wrse when i am sad or angry, So i am shocked my writting is not too bad right now, but some of my PM's have been VERY bad.