Is there something wrong with me.Do i need help?

[Dark_Desires]

So for quite awhile i have had thougts of killing myself there just thought i have never really wanted to or anything.Its just so random like in the morning i feel like not tacking my insulin or tacking to much and ending it it just makes me feel depressed and makes me want to cut and scratch again.Do i need help or something i would never do anything.Any advice do i need help?

[coolkid007]

Bro tell somebody what u are going through. It will help a lot!!!

[Dark_Desires]

I did tell some of it to my ex gf who is one of my best friends.But i dont want to talk to my mum she will proably flip.

[antondrexler22]

tell some one you Bloody trust!

[Mirage]

I'm sorry this is happening for you. This happened to me at a point in my life, and I just kept thinking about the things I would miss. Just think of a thing or person you would miss if you were dead. That kept me from going through with it, and hopefully it will keep you from it too.

Good luck!

[FullyAlive]

Ok its one thing to prevent yourself from doing anything but still you want to get rid of the thoughts too, its good you say you wouldn't do anything. But I think you still need to tell someone. You say your mum would flip but at the end of the day she's your mother she'd want to keep you safe. I've had my mum find out a lot of things in various awful ways. I know its got to be hard to tell her. But you don't necessarily have to tell her exactly what you're feeling just explain how you've been quite low recently and that you aren't sure if you can feel better by yourself. Then tell her you would like to make an appointment to discuss a few things with your doctor. It might shock her no mother wants to imagine her child sad in a way she can't fix. But she'll just want to support you. Good luck :hug:

[Sire]

"Suicide may also be regarded as an experiment -- a question which man puts to Nature, trying to force her to answer. The question is this: What change will death produce in a man’s existence and in his insight into the nature of things? It is a clumsy experiment to make; for it involves the destruction of the very consciousness which puts the question and awaits the answer."
ARTHUR SCHOPENHAUER


Every person touches thousands of lives, even though they may not know the people they touch. I had a friend who killed himself, and acquaintance really, I don't even remember his name and he probably didn't know me at all. Well his death showed me the dark side of the police, the church, and families in ways I hadn't considered before. He definitely took things from me, even though he didn't know me.

Just because someone effects me, does not mean that I have a right to interfere in their lives. Most people who try and help a person who is depressed get rebuffed, because it isn't their business. I don't believe there is a societal answer to depression. We have to find our own way as individuals. I for one have been on 20 different medicines for depression and they were all crap. I have had to find my own way.

So, the question we ALL want the answer to,

"How do I stop my depression?"


Talk with others. It's really that simple, I don't mean "Oh hey.. I'm sad because of X due to Y" Really pour your soul into what you are saying, the emotions you bottle up are basically a time-bomb waiting to happen. You need to release ALL of the emotion being built up, CRY if needed, Punch a wall, but most of all, talk. If you want someone to talk to, I'm open at ALL times. I do not care if it is 4:00A.M in the morning, get my Skype off of my profile and call me if it will help you. And if you don't wish to speak to me, almost EVERYONE here in this forum will be there for you. If all else fails, keep a journal.

To wrap things up, a quote from our president himself, who says more than I can with two pages of text in one paragraph.

"The thing you need to know is, things will get better. And more than that, with time you’re going to see that your differences are a source of pride and a source of strength. You’ll look back on the struggles you’ve faced with compassion and wisdom. "

[Dark_Desires]

I only just recently relooked at this thread i made and i apreciate your advice guys.And i am starting to get help now with this and with not cuting.

[northskater110]

I only just recently relooked at this thread i made and i apreciate your advice guys.And i am starting to get help now with this and with not cuting.

Great to hear buddy!

Cutting is never the answer, it is like and addiction, plus it's physical effects don't help you either.

I'm glad that you are coping with your issues, and make sure to let us know if you ever need anything!