Anger Attacks

[Eagle63]

I cant control myself. I hate it. It scares me, my family, and my friends.

After every attack, I feel like killing myself because I do more harm than good.

I thought it was just a phase, because 7th and 8th grade were tough years for me.

But socially and academically I'm in the clear, and it scares me that theyre still happening.

My most recent anger attack broke my great grandparents' hand-me-down chairs that she absolutely loves, and were hiding it from my dad while we try to fix it.

It's all my fault. Everything is.

Fuck these anger attacks. Fuck every therapist my parents try to put me in a room with. Fuck my life. Fuck the world.

[Njathind]

Hmmm, are you at least willing to give therapy a go though?

I was in a psych ward with a guy who got really angry, he told me about some of the stuff he did and TBH it sounded really funny but look where it got him.

There are people that can help and I would suggest giving it a go, talk to a therapist and see what they can come up with, what differnet treatments they can offer you.

[jzp706]

I do the same thing. You just need to have the will to change.
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[Eagle63]

i want to change, but money is tight and my parents would rather have me have a short fuse than have to pay for a therapist.

Hopefully this situation will make me realize how stupid I have been and how pointless it is to take out anger on stuff its not meant to be taken out on.

[ocdseeking]

I have PTSD anger attacks, could that be it in your case?