lost

[Mara-chan]

....i've broken my promise.....i've lost everything.....i can't do anything right.....maybe it is better if i died....like my xbf said....i can't do this anymore....i feel dead inside....i don't want help....i have what i need....i've started the job....why not finish it?

Please post in a colour that is readable- Fiction

[Blue63]

Because there IS more to life than the suffering of it all. Because one day it WILL get better. And that sounds like SUCH bullshit, I know. But it's not, because the majority of people on earth are still alive, aren't they? I know, I'm not the best help. I'm not in the best state of mind right now either. YOu need to stay here, on this earth, because as teenagers, we simply DON'T understand it. And that is really hard to grasp, but there is more to come. More. Lot's more. Stay here. Stay with us.

[Mara-chan]

i've got nothing left....everything i worked for is gone....and is never coming back....i have nothing left here....

[Dimitri]

Omg, i love you, dont you ever say that, i am soo sorry i cannot see you tomorrow, i am working all day i are soo sorry.....i love you so much!!!!

[Mara-chan]

......its ok......hopefully i make it through the night......

[Fiction]

Now I completely understand the feeling of thinking you're better off dead. I feel like this everyday, but you know what? I'm still here. By the skin of my teeth, yes. But i'm still here because I respect the opinions of the people around me and the people I love.

However much I hate myself as long as there is someone out there who loves me it's my job to stay for them. How is it my right to take myself away from them? It's not me that'll suffer if I die, it's them. How is it my right to make that happen? The day they tell me they're better off with me dead, that's when i'll die, but until then i'm staying for them.

All this can only make you a better person, and maybe one day you'll be glad that they kept you here.

Death is the easy option, and you have no idea how much leaving will hurt the people around you. I've been on both sides of suicide attempts, I know how it feels from both sides, but the pain of wanting to die is temporary, the pain of losing someone is forever.

[Mara-chan]

thanks fiction....
its just been a rly tought week....and it ended horribly.....and my old habits have started 2 come back.....and they got out of control.....
....all i want is 4 things 2 get better......but.....idt they ever will.......

[Amaryllis]

Sweetpea, you shouldn't believe what other people put into your head. It isn't true that this world would be better with you dead. You genuinely seem like a nice girl and from what Robert has told me, you are.

Everyone is useful in one manner or another if they choose to be. You don't have to be dead inside. The reason you feel this way is because you can't cope with the pain and not feeling is a way of coping. But it doesn't have to be this way. Don't feel bad for feeling sad and don't be afraid of it, either. Feelings don't just go away on their own and you shouldn't expect them to or try to push them away.

Allow your self to wallow in misery for a bit, then decide to get out of it. Do things. Meet all sorts of new people and don't be afraid of loosing them, because change can be a blessing. Try to have fun - life is much too short to waste. You only get one shot at life, live it till the end.

[Mara-chan]

....im trying....so hard.....but every time i try 2 do sumthing good.....i fuck it up.....im lost....and i dont think im ever going to find my way back....