dont know

[acryforhelp]

I dont even know anymore.....I am so tired. I havent cut in a few days since giving up all my blades as part of a safety agreement between my counselor. I am trying but its so hard. Feeling lost and unimportant. I am not suppose to be alone.....but we are having a hard time finding someone for me to spend the day with.....makes me feel like it would just be easier if I were dead. Still really upset about the friend I called the other day and got told that I was too much of a liability.....

[anonymous53]

I know it's hard. Maybe go to a club, such as the boys and girls club? That way you're not alone and there's a chance you'll meet a new friend

[Ace_of_Spades]

The first few days are always really hard, but after a little while things will get better, i promise. Just try to take things one day at a time, and pick one thing to look forward to every day. Just try to focus on that, and you should be fine.

[FullyAlive]

I've never done well without my blades so I know how you feel. It always makes me feel a loss of control. I've also had the whole don't leave her alone thing. Not fun.
There's not a lot I can think to suggest except distraction techniques, find some that work for you and stick to them. The not leaving you alone will ease up after a little while.
And as for your friend i've had similar said to me, however I highly doubt they are your only friend? And well they're just not worth it if they aren't willing to be there through the bad times aswell as the good well that says something about them as a person. You'll find someone else does care, you might not expect it but I promise there will be someone.

You aren't better off dead, no one is. Talk to someone be it us here or someone close to you. Find someone willing to listen and tell them how you feel. It will get better. Maybe not any time soon, but one day, eventually things will change. :hug: