So what now?

[AlmostHomeless]

I haven't been here in a long time because my mom has been a helicopter parent and she is always watching over my shoulder.

So I don't want to give up on quitting cutting. I haven't talked to my mom about it at all. When she found out she yelled at me. I ignored her until she left me alone and It hasn't come up since. I'm scared to bring it up because I don't want her to be mad but I don't want to give up. I just don't know what to do. My school nurse helped me with the physical part, but she completely ignored the fact that I do this to myself and that I need help. The 1 friend I confided in is coming over next wednesday so we can talk but it feels like it's ages away. I'm still concerned about the impulses I have, especially since I found out where my dad has his loaded gun.

[RustyRockets]

Hey Stephen

Congratulations on doing so well to keep not cutting! First forget about the gun, you've got no reason to go near that at all, you don't need it.

Do you feel that talking to your mother is vital to you recovering? If the answer is yes then you need to sit down with her, no matter how hard it may seem. If you feel like there are other people you trust who can understand, then it might be best not to stress yourself out by divulging everything to your parents. (Obviously if things get serious again or you need help then go straight to them anyway).

Please try to hold on for Wednesday, it's just a few more sleeps and I'm really sure that it will have been worth the wait! Keep safe,

Rus

[AlmostHomeless]

I can't just forget about the gun. I'm not as scared as I was a week ago about it, but even if I forget about it, something could still happen. Sometimes I'm afraid to go to bed because I'm scared that I won't wake up the next morning, but that usually just results in new cuts the next day but who knows? I don't know how long I have until it happens.

[Ace_of_Spades]

Does your school have a guidance counselor you can talk to? They might be able to help you. And if you're really concerned about the gun, you might just want to tell your parents, i mean, i know it will suck, but it's for the best, right? I hope things get better for you soon :)

[jzp706]

You need to go see the school therapist. not the nurse. and forget about the gun, suicde only means that there is one less beautiful person in this world

[AlmostHomeless]

We don't have a school therapist. I go to a small school, graduating class: 50.

[Ace_of_Spades]

Wow, that is a really small school. You could always ask your parents if they will take you to a therapist.

[AlmostHomeless]

I really don't want to talk to my parents. That's the last thing I want to do. My parents regularly make fun of people like me. My mom, even after finding out, at least I think she found out, still makes fun of depression and self-harm. We don't talk about it. I don't want to talk to her or my dad. They are both the same.

Is there anything I can do without telling my parents? If not I'll probably be fine for a while unless it gets worse.

[bacbrat]

Are you a religious man? A priest would be a great person to talk to. They aren't allowed to judge you and can't tell anyone what you said. If you want to talk please let me know.