Just pure tiredeness.

[Gandalf]

I actually feel like being sick.
This isn't a question really. I just want to share my pain:
My sister and her friend her friend are really getting me down :(
Acting towards me, in a stereotypically gay manner. I obviously don't feel like saying anything about the subject and there they are saying things like "Do you know your gay yet?" at school where anyone could have heard.
I know it's partly a lie when I say "I'm not gay". What-else can I do, I'm not ready to be out in any way.
But it's inappropriate. I mean they are both 17. My mum actually brags about how she has taught my sister and I to have common coutesy, but I don't see any here. Especially with sensitive issues like these.
What b******! (How low of me to stoop to name calling but It's how I feel.)
They just don't understand.
It's a good job I can handle myself. I can actually feel rage I've never felt before. I hate it. This is partly why I fear comng out. I just wish they would keep their dam worthless opinions to themselves. Let me live in peace and learn to accept myself without there interfierance.


Sorry for the essay. But I'm just thankful I can share this.

[Tristin.]

we all go through this and yes, i wont sugar coat it, it is shit. but let me tell you right now, do not fear coming out it is an exciting, fun and liberating experience and while it is scary and (as every cliche tells us) dramatic it should be embraced.

do your family know that you are gay/bi? if so they may be acting like that to try and make you come out. they may already know.

if you need to talk, im here :) x

[Gandalf]

If so they may be acting like that to try and make you come out.
Interesting point, especially when I had the same thought, it just puzzles me, how might they know since I haven't told anybody.
But as I said before, If (my sister at least) has worked it out, and knows that I don't want to talk about it, why does she and her friend keep bringing it up?
can't she just take the hint?
At least my mum hasn't said anything, I don't think I could handle it (yet).
I thought of atempory resloution:
I am going to be mature and request that they stop.

[Tristin.]

they may have guessed. you are 15 and live with them every day, trust me, if they could have guessed, they have x

as for the sister, she is your sister. she may be bringing it up as a joke, unknowingly hitting on a fact or she may be trying to make you come out. x