suicidal

[acryforhelp]

So i dont really know where to being....I have been very suicidal lately and after meeting with my counselor yesterday we determined that my options were to be hospitalized again or redo another safety plan. So I choose to redo my safety plan. The thing was....this time it involved giving up my blades and my car keys. So no more cutting or driving for me. The blades thing was so hard to do. I also can't be by myself which is hard as well. I dont really know what to think or say anymore. Everyone keeps asking me how I am doing and I really dont know what to say because I am not okay.

[RustyRockets]

Alleah, its ok to not be ok. You are in a rough spot just now and there is no shame in it, just because you don't feel 100% is nothing to be ashamed of. You aren't letting down a single person. I know giving up blades and keys can make you make because you have less power and freedom, but if you've been working with a counsellor then you know its a good and logical thing to do.

You're here and talking which is the main thing, it shows that you do want to stop and progress. Please try and stay strong and don't take on too much pressure from others, I'm sure you can make it through.

Stay safe,
Rus

[acryforhelp]

I have tried asking for help in all the ways I know how. I dont know what to do anymore.

[RustyRockets]

Is there not somebody you trust you could let know, just so people know to give you a little breathing space? Or maybe writing a letter would help, that way you can pick your words and make people understand the situation a little better, without the stress of the conversation?

Keep talking to the guys on here too!

[Mirage]

Please don't do it. Just keep talking to us and we will try to help you as much as possible. I'm new here, and I really don't think suicide is the way out. It may seem to you like the only possibility, but as my teacher always says, "think beyond yourself". You need to think about the people that would miss you if you were gone from their lives. Just think about that and hopefully it will be enough for you to hold on to.