I'm done.

[screamtobeheard]

I'm done. I'm just so done. I have two good things in my life: music and my boyfriend. And I'm too busy with everything else that I hate doing that I don't have time to spend time with him or to listen to music. Everything went wrong today. I did something really stupid on one of my exams. My mother wouldn't stop bitching at me. I've been trying to get my breaststroke improved for three years now, but I haven't been able to recover from my injury. And literally a million other things that I just don't feel like typing out. Everything came crashing down on me today. All I do is pretend to be happy and try to help everyone. But how can I help them when I can't help myself? I feel like stupid, ugly, fat, failure, and I hate myself and my life and everything about it. I want to die. I can't die, not yet at least. So for now, I guess I'll just live with cutting. A lot. I'm so angry and frustrated right now, I can't even explain it.
Sorry, I guess this is just a vent.

[Josiah7]

Im really sorry to hear that, made me sad just reading that, as I could relate it to many of my own friends, how they are going through similar situations. There's not much I can say that will help the situation, but I just wanted to say stay strong. Hard I know, but try to do your very best, keep your chin up, battle one situation at a time. If possible talk it over with your boyfriend, or close friends, I have found through experience that that is the best source of support.

No matter how hard things get at times, try and be positive, and be the best that you can be. Anything is possible, and if you stay strong you will get over the problems.

Its good to vent, do it everytime you need to, either here on VT or with someone that your close with.

Tomorrow could bring a new start, who knows what we will face tomorrow. Please stay strong, and know that there are many people here willing to help and support you :)

[screamtobeheard]

Thank you, I'm trying very hard. I just wish I didn't have to.

[Josiah7]

Yeah I know what you mean, keep trying hard, that will make the difference.

Always remember the proverb "Fall seven times, stand up eight."

Hope things work out, if you ever want to vent, just let somebody know :)

[Oath]

We all have moments where we feel like we have fallen into a bottomless pit. Don't feel that way. You have every right to be upset, it is alright to be upset. It isn't alright to do something that you will probably regret. Things like hurting or harming yourself. Nobody wants you to do that. That is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I have had a cutting problem myself, so I know from experience. The blades are not the solution. We want to help you, and we don't want to see you do anything to harm yourself. What you are doing is a good solution. Venting all of your issues is a good way to express your feelings. Don't feel alone.

[screamtobeheard]

Josiah: Thank you so much. (:

Cassie: You're right, the things I do are not good solutions. But I don't want to vent every time I don't feel bad. I hate being a burden on people. I know I'm not alone, it just feels like I am sometimes.