Torn

[spw184]

As a lot of you know, Im a gay highschool who recently came out to his crush, and he was fine with it. (Check my thread history for the saga :P)

Now, lets move on to the next chapter.

So, he knows that im gay, and he is fine with it. He treats me the same that he always has, it doesn't make a diffrence. ( I am also sure he knows I like him, but thats another problem by itself. Herein is my delima.

You see, he is extremely sure of his sexuality. He is straight. Period, end of story. This allows him to act gay. I dont mean glitter and rainbows gay, I mean hugs, slapping other guys asses, touching, all in the name of joking. (Well, i guess except for hugging, thats normal...) and every time he touches me, i love it... for all of 5 seconds. Than I realize that it was no more than a friendly gesture/joke, and I spend the rest of the day brooding over him.

So, (Please excuse my drug referance) Is the high worth the price I pay afterwards? Should I tell him to stop? Would that make things akward? i infer what he is doing as a way to.. give me a peice of him, without giving me a peice of him. He always hugs me whenever he leaves... I guess im torn on wheater or not I should tell him to stop.

I love the rush, But I hate reality.

[CrossingtheCourtyard]

If he is completely, utterly straight, then you may need to begin the process of getting over him. This might be hard if you contact like this gets you in such a state. It may be best in the long run to ask him not to do these things, that way it might make it easier to get over him. I guess the sad thing is, you do have to remember that that's it: reality. It's probably best this way.

[LuckyLuke]

What you need to do is ask yourself, "Why does he need to know and what would that change?" after considering this, if there are reasons that he MUST know and if it WILL change something you're going to have to consider if it's worth the possible repercussions.

Good luck and best wishes.

[Can'tHelpIt]

Why does this happen?!?!?! Stupid reality!!! >:( but personally I would tell him to stop but not that you like him but just say it's because your gay because if he finds out that you like him and you were doing that "to get a piece of him" it might creep him out.

I'm soooo sorry for you!!!!

[Tristin.]

the straight crush. i feel for you x

you need to start the process of moving on, talk to him and if he is ok with things as you say, explain to him. if he is as ok as you say, he will stop and things wont be awkward. the high as good as it may feel, is not good in this situation; the forbidden fruit is a temptation, but id prefer the apple that is in reach all the more. x

[curious_boy_13]

not gonna be easy...sorry.

[wattado]

that sucks :/ but if it makes you feel bad then ask him to stop.

[Somebuddy]

Well if it really bothers you just tell him to stop doing that to you (but only when he does it, not during a random conversation because he might become suspicious otherwise)

[Dimentio]

I am in a simular but different sitaution where, The guy i love, The better the day i have with him, The worse my depression when i get home, But i have not told him i am gay yet so well done for you! :)
But give it a week or so for you to think over and if you still think it is the best thing in the world but you feel like your being crushed from it afterwards then all you want is it again, As much as it is hard to do and i cannot say much as i have not done it myself, You should say no.