17 depressed lost hopless?

[wisse2012]

hi im 17 years old and i live in a very non gay town, im from a small town bellefontaine ohio and i have dealt with being curious my entire life affraid to come out or do anything. i have kept everything so bottled up inside that i explode into tears alot my friends have seen it but they do not know the reason why. along with that i have gone through huge depression sweeps some to the point of cutting or the thoughts of suicide. i tried to kill myself once when i was 15 but failed i just dont know what to do where to turn before i really do something stupid any help would be nice

[theonetheycallbob]

I am not gay or curious and could not understand the troubles of coming out, or the horrible feeling that you have bottled up inside. But I can tell you that life will get better. You will not be forever stuck in your small town. Eventually you will move on and be able to experience the true you that you have inside. It will be hard keeping it locked up inside, but eventually you will be able to express who you are and what you feel. Don't ever be afraid to be the true you. God made you who you are supposed to be, express that and it will pay off.