Knowing your sexuality?

[Cicero]

So I am 15 years old. And I have a few questions and stuff .

So I think I'm straight maybe a little bi but I'm worried. So when I was 13 I would watch normal porn, but when I would I'd feel very bad and stuff. I am catholic so that doesn't help. But when I see a girls vagina, I get grossed out. My parents are divorced my mom being catholic and my dad Mormon. So my mom raised me a lot, I'd see her a lot more (but I see my dad 10 days a month) so that feminine influence kinda took its toll on me (but I do like burping and farting and playing video games and violence, I'm just not much into athletics). When I'm around anyone I instinctively raise my voice to be a little higher than it is. But if I don't iTs kinda low (but not much), it's not super high when I raise it but kinda. If I don't then for me I feel like I sound lazy and that's not what I want. My parents have kinda embarrassed me about puberty in the past do you think thats why i raise my voice like that? Alright off topic somewhat...


So when I would jerk of to porn I would look at the girls boobs. I hate the vagina is that bad? It's like I like big boobs on skinny-average women. But when I was 13 I stopped watching it cause it grossed me out the vagina. So then I started looking at guys dicks (while jerking), at the time I had no pubic hair so I mainly looked at the dicks cause I felt like "I can't wait till I have public hair" is that normal? (I'll recap all questions at the end)
So then when I was 14 I had pubic hair and then I wanted that perfect body (6 pack, pecs everything) so I started watching gay porn. But I wouldn't really look at the faces I would look at the body. But I could jerk off to guy teens with clothing on (except shirts). So I'm basically obsessed with the body and armpit hair (I don't have any) so here's the thing I notice. I jerk off to anything I don't have (ie. abs,pubic hair,pecs,armpit hair). Is that normal for someone who's straight? I do like girls though, but when tv shows say sex is the only thing on a guys mind, I don't feel like that. Though recently I have been starting to think of having sex with a girl I really like. I have a disease which causes puberty to come later than usual. So is the major emotions of thinking about sex with girls kicking in? (cause I've started to think of what it's like to have sex with a girl in my class). At times I admit some guys are good looking. But is that gay? But in the future I see myself with a beautiful wife (someone like Kim kardashian Britney spears, the blond girl from spiderman 3 who's Brock's girlfriend, kourtney kardashian, or gwyneth Paltrow) I do like girls and I do want to have them as a gf but I'm soooo confffuussseedddd!!!!!! Oh ya... Also I haven't worn shorts in front of my parents for over 5 years cause I'm scared they'll say something about my legs. (they are pretty hairy, but not major just medium)


1. Do you think I raise my voice like that cause of my parents embarrassing me about puberty?
2. Is it bad I get grossed out by the vagina?
3. Is it normal jerking off to dicks cause I'm excited for getting pubic hair?
4. Is it normal to jerk off to something you don't have? (pecs abs armpit hair etc)
5. Do you think the emotions of thinking about sex with a girl kicking in?
6. Is it gay thinking some guys are good looking?
7. What do you think straight or bi?
8. But I'm starting to work out, and I have a partial 6 pack. And I even look at myself like I would at other guys with good bodies. What does that mean?
9. Does it mean that I'm just obsessed with having a perfect body and obsessed with things I wish I could change about myself?
10. Sometimes I jerk off looking at my leg hair, what does that mean? Does it mean that I have not particular interest in guys?
11. Does it only matter who you see yourself in the future with? (guy or girl)
12. So since I see a future with a girl does that mean I'm straight, but just "curious" in a way? (I'm guessing curious means, liking to think about non-straight stuff due to hormones)
13. Is it weird I think about stuff like giving someone a handjob and a blowjob and him the same thing to me? Or is that just being curious? (I think gay sex is gross though, as in dick to butt)
14. When Id look at gay porn though I think, why do they have more cum than me? I've got like 2 drops, it doesn't shoot out or anything it kinda just drizzles down. And I also wish I had it shoot out like everyone else does (guessing it's abnormal to have 2 drops) is that too normal? (wanting it to shoot out with quiet a bit)



*I honestly don't want to be bi I just want to be straight.
Sorry with all these questions I'm just worried about this topic.
For the record. I do think wow he's good looking and I think a few "curious" thoughts but would NEVER put them to action. I think I have some obsessive disorder though.

[Cicero]

Ladies mentioned above are the celebrities I have a crush on. Also I've always been slower to mature mentally, when I was 10 years old I'd act like I'm 6. Also, I might be curious to try something once or so. But I do like girls and women.

[Cicero]

ANOTHER AND LAST QUESTION


15. Is it normal trying to hide puberty from parents? (Im ok with my hairy legs and stuff like that at school but with my parents I don't like it, and with some friends who've mentioned how hairy my legs are I feel uncomfortable) but my legs are major hairy it's just that their noticeable.

[Short Circuit]

lonnnggg post dude.

1. Do you think I raise my voice like that cause of my parents embarrassing me about puberty? Probably, but as it happens to everyone, why worry about it?
2. Is it bad I get grossed out by the vagina? Nope, they do kinda look strange.
3. Is it normal jerking off to dicks cause I'm excited for getting pubic hair? Yes it is
4. Is it normal to jerk off to something you don't have? (pecs abs armpit hair etc) Each to there own
5. Do you think the emotions of thinking about sex with a girl kicking in? We all have those emotions during puberty, nothing wrong with that at all.
6. Is it gay thinking some guys are good looking? Nope, some guys are, some are not.
7. What do you think straight or bi? straight, with a slight curious trait.
8. But I'm starting to work out, and I have a partial 6 pack. And I even look at myself like I would at other guys with good bodies. What does that mean? You like your body!
9. Does it mean that I'm just obsessed with having a perfect body and obsessed with things I wish I could change about myself? Would not say obsessed, just that you like to take care of what you look like.
10. Sometimes I jerk off looking at my leg hair, what does that mean? Does it mean that I have not particular interest in guys? Means nothing, sometimes I jack off looking at the ceiling!
11. Does it only matter who you see yourself in the future with? (guy or girl) Puberty means you fancy ANYONE, too early to say your gay, bi, straight or whatever.
12. So since I see a future with a girl does that mean I'm straight, but just "curious" in a way? (I'm guessing curious means, liking to think about non-straight stuff due to hormones) Who knows what the future holds, once the hormones have stopped, you will know your sexuality.
13. Is it weird I think about stuff like giving someone a handjob and a blowjob and him the same thing to me? Or is that just being curious? (I think gay sex is gross though, as in dick to butt) No, it means your normal.
14. When Id look at gay porn though I think, why do they have more cum than me? I've got like 2 drops, it doesn't shoot out or anything it kinda just drizzles down. And I also wish I had it shoot out like everyone else does (guessing it's abnormal to have 2 drops) is that too normal? (wanting it to shoot out with quiet a bit) I dribble, not shoot, and its only a few drops, means nothing, you worry too much lol.

[pmm98]

Alright guy, let me answer your questions. I'm a few years behind you (13) and I am 85% sure that I am straight. I have questioned myself before, which is perfectly normal. Let me answer your questions;

1. Do you think I raise my voice like that cause of my parents embarrassing me about puberty? I didn't understand what you meant when I read this.

2. Is it bad I get grossed out by the vagina? No, some vagina's are nasty. Some are beautiful, tight, and smooth. When your getting some, you really won't complain.

3. Is it normal jerking off to dicks cause I'm excited for getting pubic hair? You probably jerk off to dicks, because it's arousing. That's normal. Your 15, it's called hormones. It happens to most people. Doesn't mean you want anything out of it.

4. Is it normal to jerk off to something you don't have? (pecs abs armpit hair etc) It can be normal, depends on the person.

5. Do you think the emotions of thinking about sex with a girl kicking in?
Most likely, if you want to have sex with a girl, it probably means the testosterone is kicking in.

6. Is it gay thinking some guys are good looking? Not at all, any person with half a brain can tell when someone (guy or girl, and regardless of their sexuality) is attractive.

7. What do you think straight or bi? I think your straight, but if you want to do something with a guy or if you have had feelings for guys than you could be bi.

8. But I'm starting to work out, and I have a partial 6 pack. And I even look at myself like I would at other guys with good bodies. What does that mean? It means you like checking yourself out, who doesn't.

9. Does it mean that I'm just obsessed with having a perfect body and obsessed with things I wish I could change about myself? That's a possibility.

10. Sometimes I jerk off looking at my leg hair, what does that mean? Does it mean that I have not particular interest in guys? I'm guessing that hairy legs is a turn on for you?

11. Does it only matter who you see yourself in the future with? (guy or girl)
It doesn't ONLY matter, but that is a big part of figuring yourself out. Chances are, if you see yourself on a beach, down on one knee proposing to a beautiful girl that your straight. Yet, if you can see yourself doing that to a guy, you might be gay or bi.

12. So since I see a future with a girl does that mean I'm straight, but just "curious" in a way? (I'm guessing curious means, liking to think about non-straight stuff due to hormones) That is what curious means, and you could be curious. Most guys are, even if they don't say it publicly.

13. Is it weird I think about stuff like giving someone a handjob and a blowjob and him the same thing to me? Or is that just being curious? (I think gay sex is gross though, as in dick to butt) It's not weird, it's normal. Those thoughts might go away, they might not. If they don't than maybe you are gay or bi. Handjobs/Blowjobs are far more appealing than anal. I'm straight, and I know I wouldn't do any of those things. Yet, if I saw two guys doing that, I would probably get aroused. Hormones fuck you up, and SEX in general (gay, straight, lesbian etc.) is arousing. For example, if someone watching transvestite porn gets aroused, does that mean that they want to fuck a transvestite. Probably not. If a gay guy watches straight porn, is he straight? Not likely.

14. When Id look at gay porn though I think, why do they have more cum than me? I've got like 2 drops, it doesn't shoot out or anything it kinda just drizzles down. And I also wish I had it shoot out like everyone else does (guessing it's abnormal to have 2 drops) is that too normal? (wanting it to shoot out with quiet a bit) It's not abnormal to not cum very hard. It varies from person to person. You likely cum harder as you get older, due to increased testosterone production.

An important thing to remember, porn is a pretty shitty way to figure yourself out. Porn is really nothing. Most anybody gets turned on by any kind of porn, as you will see if you look around the Virtual Teen forums. Most straight guys masturbate to all kinds of porn. Not all, but most. It's how you feel in real life, that counts. Not what you watch through a computer screen while sitting in bed. Chances are, when your naked with a naked girl in the same bed, you won't have any issues getting it up.