I cant feel real emotions anymore..

[beebs]

Ive was sad for so long, lonely and just upset all the time.
But i just put a smile on my face and pretend im happy.
But now even when i have no one to hide my emotions from, i refuse to open up.
When im on my own, im not exacully happy, i still feel upset, like i want to cry but i cant anymore. I cant let others know, but i want to be able to show my emotions to myself.
Even when i cut i cant cry or feel any real emotions anymore.

I dont know what to do. Someone help!

[Manga]

Okay well first off you should probably try to not cut yourself ... that tends to be a good idea in general.

Second something seems to be holding you back from letting it all out. Even though you can't cry or anything like that, you should still fume every once in a while. I suggest you get a noteback and write down everything that is bothering you and how it all makes you feel. It will help you show your real emotions a bit. get you thinking, it's safe, and I think it will help lead to something bigger.

I'd love to hear if you gave it a try, so don't be a stranger, okay?

[NightFighter]

Hey beebs,

I dont exactly have a 'cure' to your problem. I honestly feel like this is something that will 'fix' itself in time. By that, i mean, right now i cant tell you anything that you can do that will definitely help you but i know that no person can live like that. Emotions are complicated. You'll boil over eventually. You cant live like a shell and you'll need to let go sometime.

However, I would like to point out two things-

Firstly, its a positive sign that you are asking for help. That means that you still care. You still care about your wellbeing and about your life.

Secondly, you dont feel any emotions when you cut anymore. I understand the complicated reasons as to why people self harm but perhaps this could be another reason to abstain from doing it? Just think about it for a second.

This probably means nothing to you right now but i know how you feel. I know that you wont be able to hide forever. And i know that you'll feel so much better when you let the tears flow and confide in someone.

So, i guess what im trying to say is just stick with it. Dont give up. Just keep going.
You'll begin to feel again, i promise.

Take care beebs,

Im rooting for you :)