I dont know what to think

[acryforhelp]

Just found out a close friend of mine lost her sister last night due to a car wreck. Police are trying to find out why she suddenly swerved into on coming traffic.....how awful is it that I almost wish it was me? I need a reason to hurt....it is so frusterating to hurt and not know why. Almost seems like it would be easier that way. Or why couldnt it have been me that was killed? Or why couldnt it have been someone I know.....such morbid thoughts. I dont know what to think anymore. The cutting almost isnt enough. I dont know what to do.

[flumeendeavors]

I know exactly how you feel hun. I feel like that all the time -- its like, not having a reason to be depressed makes you feel crazy. So you wish bad things would happen to yourself or the people you care about because atleast then you would have an excuse or a real reason as to why you're so depressed. I get it...but believe me, if the cutting isnt enough then you need to seek help. Even if its just to talk to a crisis line. Im here for support if you need it okay? <3

[acryforhelp]

My friend is devastated and I am still sitting here wishing is were me. What is wrong with me.

[Njathind]

My friend is devastated and I am still sitting here wishing is were me. What is wrong with me.

there is nothing wrong with you, its a perfectly natural reaction. People grieve in different ways and maybe this is your way of coping with the grief. Try not to beat yourself up about it and most importantly speak to people about how you feel, this is not your fault but please dont let it eat away inside of you. I have seen similar things happen and the guy who felt just like you ended up in hospital fighting for his life.

Please I dont want to see that happen to anyone else, please PLEASE contact me. My msn is on my profile page, please get in touch if you need to talk, PLEASE! :hug: