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FuzzyLittleNightmare
December 8th, 2011, 02:51 PM
I've had concious problems with eating since I was about 12, trying to cut down my food intake to lose weight, but it only really became full anorexia when i was around 14. Since I was 16, when my mum figured out what it was, I have been trying to get better. But i'm sick of it. I still feel like total crap and I'm getting fatter as well!
I used to be down to 98 pounds but now I weigh more like 126 pounds :( my goal weight has always been 90 pounds. I was so close to my target weight and I want to get back to it. If I was feeling healthier as well as being fat maybe I could put up with it but I'm not! I just want to be skinny and happy and beautiful.
Fiction
December 8th, 2011, 06:15 PM
This sounds a lot like me. My goal weight was also 90lbs. I got to 95lbs, and i'm quite a bit heavier now.

I know how difficult it is. If anything this is the hardest part of recovery, when you realise you've gained weight. Are you getting any professional support for this? Because this is where you really need it. You've come so so far in getting better, this might be the hardest part, but it's the last part. One day you'll be free of this, you just have to keep going.
FuzzyLittleNightmare
December 9th, 2011, 05:51 PM
I know how difficult it is. If anything this is the hardest part of recovery, when you realise you've gained weight. Are you getting any professional support for this? Because this is where you really need it. You've come so so far in getting better, this might be the hardest part, but it's the last part. One day you'll be free of this, you just have to keep going.

No, I'm not really getting any support at all really. Well, I have an appointment scheduled for the end of febuary but by that time I'll either be better or so much worse they'll just pass me on to someone else like normal...
Fiction
December 9th, 2011, 07:22 PM
Can you not get a nearer appointment? Even if it's just with your GP? It's worth a try
FuzzyLittleNightmare
December 11th, 2011, 11:57 AM
Can you not get a nearer appointment? Even if it's just with your GP? It's worth a try

No, I tried just talking to the GP but they just said they weren't equipped to deal with me and referred me to the other people
Wintergirl_80.0
December 20th, 2011, 10:17 AM
sometimes idk if i wanna get better either