Violent thoughts

[antiabort]

I have been getting violent thoughts such as me shooting up the school, me torturing and raping a girl I hate, me killing my mother, and me killing myself. These thoughts bother me greatly because I am a nice person. But I just keep randomly getting these thoughts. For example last night I began to worry about my mother because she was late. I started seeing her in a car crash, her being taken by the government, etc. But then something happened that is still bothering me today. I began to think that I would sound badass if I could say I have no mother. I believe I think that way about her because she made me move in with her with no warning. And also violence does not bother me one bit. I recently was in a thing called a "gore thread" and I actually laughed at a few of the pictures, the ones I didn't laugh at I simply didn't react to at all. Should I see a psychologist or am I just being a normal teenager?

[Stefanie]

The violent one about raping a girl,killing yourself and
Shooting up a school you should probably find
Help on but the one about your mom just
Means your worried about her.

[NightFighter]

John, i dont want to be rude or mean but I honestly don't think those are normal teenage thoughts. The rape, torture and wanting to be rid from your mum all point to you having power issues in my opinion. Would you agree?
Perhaps a psychologist would help you understand what these thoughts you're having mean. It's worth a shot.
Luckily, you know how wrong your thoughts are so you wont act on them.

[Ben4ever]

I have similar thoughts sometimes. I would recommend a trip to see your local psychologist just to be safe though!
I did and found out I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that causes these thoughts. I have since started medication that help me! I hope you are okay!:)

[antiabort]

I have similar thoughts sometimes. I would recommend a trip to see your local psychologist just to be safe though!
I did and found out I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that causes these thoughts. I have since started medication that help me! I hope you are okay!:)

I will go see a psychologist sometime but I will not take medication for a chemical imbalance, medication has always just fucked me up.

[Mortal Coil]

As a victim of a very recent rape, I can tell you that this post disturbed me.
I think about killing myself/my mother/some kids in my school on occasion too, and since like you said these thoughts come out of nowhere, it's not a personality thing. Most likely you should see a psychologist just to see if you're ok.
About the violence thng, desensitization happens. It's not a big deal. But yeah, see the psych, especially if you're serious about these thoughts.

[Auzzie 94]

You really need help, they aren't normal thoughts.. I have had messed up thoughts.. voilent ones. I had them frequently during my high school life (7-start of 10th grade).. most of my thoughts were about killing, bashing and hurting all the dickhead bullies at my school who would pick on my mates and sometimes even me. And I had one fucked up thought about bringing a hammer to school and cracking this one guys head open who was in 12th grade (I was in 8th) and this guy took advantage of a girl-friend of mine at a party while she was drunk and he was sober and he took videos and photos on his phone and sent them to everyone. In the end I did have a little bit of a fight with that guy and after I smacked him a few I realised he wasn't worth my time or anyone else's time, so I spat on him and walked off.

[Texas warrior]

Well even if you don't need one is it worth the risk, They are normal but....

[monkeydo]

I've also experienced similar stuff and for me at least, even though at first I thought they came out of nowhere, I figured that it was just anger building up over other stuff that was coming out in bad ways. Mostly at the time I felt unloved and I had been picked on a lot and had a really low self esteem. And because I always tried to be such a "nice" person I never vented my anger and it just kept building. It definitely helps to talk about stuff and I also think you should see someone professional who can help. But if you don't want to talk to someone yet, try writing a list of all the things you think you might be angry OR hurt about (hurt becomes anger often)... you might be surprised what comes to mind when you start putting it on paper. Worked for me and helped me a lot to understand where my issues were coming from (was a suggestion from an older friend). Worth a try?

[Steve Jobs]

I used to think similar thoughts too. My parents both worked within management roles so they were very authoritative at home, which conflicted with all of us because everyone wanted to dominate. I always wanted power, but being the youngest in my family, violence always came in when I lusted for power.

I think what changed my mindset was to vent off steam and release unforgiveness and grudges to people. Is there something someone has done to you, or any other event that has kept steam strapped on you that you need to let go?

[FutureAFofficer]

John, I have these thoughts also (except for the one about shooting up the school). What helps me might sound stupid but really its awesome once you get into it. It is working out what I do is everynight before monday I do pushups until i collapse and then do situps/wall sits and leg lifts then i wait about 1 hour and do this again.

Then i sleep. I promise these thoughts will go away + you build muscle and stay fit. If this doesn't help I suggest seeing a therapist.

A few of my friends step into the ring (boxing) sometimes and they say that helps. Since you dont want to take meds i would suggest not taking them.

[KidImage]

One of my friends had thoughts like these. One day he came to school with a bb gun got up in the middle of class and shot half the class while crying and laughing. I had to pin him down before he hurt someone else.