losing my grip

[ReasonsForWeeping]

life is good in fact its going great i should be happy i have a boyfriend and i lovehim he makes me happy and i make him happy so why do i feel like in losing my mind i cut for no reason there are at least 100 cuts on my left arm and he knows i cut but i dont think he understand even tho he used to it i feel bad after i do it but i cant stop myself i just want to lose myself with the blade all i want to do is cut even tho i know it hurts him whats wrong with me i want to scream i want to lose my mind i dont want to live in reality but idk why i should be happy but i feel so alone i want to be in a white padded room and i havnt told him about the cuts i made today i dont know how to tell him

[bena3217]

i think you should me honest with him...tell him and tell him you want him to help you! im sure if he really loves you then he will help you :) if you feel you have to cut...call him or something! do other stuff to take your mind off it :)

[JournalDreamer]

I feel the same way. Just distract yourself like Ben said. Turn your mind to other things.

[beebs]

i know how you feel, but be honest with your boyfriend and ask him for help.