been about 2-3 months clean

[ryantombs]

So basically i have been clean SH free for the most part my little coping method (like hitting a rubber band against yur skin thing)
I have a new girlfriend (whole reason i started SH was because of a nasty break up)
but its just i have no will to do many things... few weeks ago suicidal thoughts... gone now
but just got grades for the new marking period (started only a few weeks ago) all C's and D's I can usually bring them up but now i feel just over whelmed its not like 2 classes its all of them... Im an average student... get mostly B's and a C or two ( go to one of the top High schools in the united states) i feel like i dnt belong here and now with all the stress the pent up anger i have for my ex and its just over whelming and i have a huge urge to cut just one last time im going insane i have a essay to write ( i know im going to fail)... highest grade for the other class was like a 75 and i am not the best writer... didnt read the book and procrastinating (rough draft supposed to be written by now but i didnt start mine till tonight)
just a bunch of stuff omg

[Njathind]

Hmmmm sounds like a rough time bud. Do you speak to anyone about how your feeling? See anyone proffesional, I remeber when I felt like you and I look back now and just cant believe how far I have come. I'm sure you can do the same you just need to take the right steps, and like my sig says. Here if you need you :)