Self harming for so long...

[Mutibann]

This is gonna seem like an exageration, but I've been self harming since I was five. In kindergarten I would give myself paper cuts on purpose (not sure why but I did it alot). In first and second grade, I would hit my head on brick walls for no apparent reason. By fourth grade, I had started scratching my hands until they bled. I started cutting in seventh grade. I stopped for awhile(nearly 3 years) but i thought about cutting myself all the time. I've been cutting again for about a month and it's worse than before. I can't stop once i start and can't think about anything else. I want to tell my mom that I started cutting again, but I don't want to disappoint her like that again. I want to stop for good but my family can't afford to get me professional help so I'm not sure what to do. Opinions? Advice? Anything? thnx

[Charleigh]

Hey hun;

I really think that you should try and get some help with this. It seems like it has escelated as you have gotten older, I think you should really try and get some help and try and help yourself, good luck hunny.
PM me if you need anything.