Again

[XxfakexX]

I tried suiside again tonight. I had my head under water, running out of oxygen, and my mum walks in. I cant take it. Im alway just on the edge but can never make it. I tried cutting my wrists a few months back but i only cut deep enough to make me pass out. I don't know how much i can take before i give in to everything. Sorry for going on, i just need to get it out.

[Mutibann]

plz don't kill yourself. Things will get better eventually. *hugs*

[LittleMiss]

Why do you want to end everything? What do you feel bad about?

It'll get easier in the end.. Coping; not dying..

If you want to talk- then.. Well, im here to listen..

[AudMac]

If you really feel this bad then you should really see someone. *hugs*

[XxfakexX]

Thanks everyone, im trying to get help but it's hard. LittleMiss, some of it's pressure from my family and guilt because i cant be who they expect me to be. Everything builing up and my ED coming back is just to much.

[LittleMiss]

Ah, I can slightly understand the family pressures.. Im scared that im not good enough half the time. That I cant be the person who they want or expect me to be.

I think the best thing to do is to just; be your own person. Dont try and please everyone else, one of the quotes ive heard that usually sticks in my mind is that;

"You can please some of the people some of the time but you cant please all of the people all of the time."

Dont be afraid to be yourself. If they cant accept you for who you are then its their problem, not yours to worry and stress about.

Another quote by Marilyn Monroe that I like is;

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”

But at the end of the day.. I know its difficult and if you need someone to talk to- then im always available.. :)

[flumeendeavors]

Well deary, it most definitely does get better ... eventually. :) Ive been in your shoes and believe me, recovery is going to be hard but its better than giving up. Hurting yourself will just create yet another to hate about yourself when right now .. you need to focus on healing the parts of you that are already broken. Im here if you want to talk. Ever. <3