Hopegirl
December 3rd, 2011, 09:46 AM
I realised today that the problem behind my self-harm has changed, before it used to be about turning emotional pain that i found impossible to deal with into physical pain - something i was familiar with.
Yet now..its not about that anymore, in the past few months ive kinda slowly slipped into a state of nothing..i dont know who i am anymore, im getting so much abuse from my "friends" and people who i thought liked me that im kinda isolting myself and blocking everything out, so much so tht i feel like...well i dont feel thats the problem,the only emotion i seem to be able to feel is pain or just hurt,and i cut just so i can feel alive in a way...i hate who ive become..
Why do you cut ? x
Yet now..its not about that anymore, in the past few months ive kinda slowly slipped into a state of nothing..i dont know who i am anymore, im getting so much abuse from my "friends" and people who i thought liked me that im kinda isolting myself and blocking everything out, so much so tht i feel like...well i dont feel thats the problem,the only emotion i seem to be able to feel is pain or just hurt,and i cut just so i can feel alive in a way...i hate who ive become..
Why do you cut ? x