Magenta
December 3rd, 2011, 12:39 AM
I'm not sure but I've been considering going back... and I've been considering some type of long-term therapy. I know my parents would find a way to pay for it. I don't know, it's just been too hard. There's a therapist I could go to that technically I'm still a patient with but... it's a man. Not sure if I'm comfortable with that right now. I'd have to find someone new.
Medication hasn't been working and I stopped going to my hospital appointments to see my psychiatrist. I don't know if I'd start going back to those...
I wouldn't know how to mention this to my mum anyway. She thinks I'm fine.
I thought about art therapy... and seeing if that was available. I'm just rambling, honestly.
I miss my old therapist. I trusted her. I really miss her but she's too far away and I know I can't go back to her for a few reasons. I wish those reasons didn't exist... I'm scared of someone new. I'm very... particular... about who I would talk to and I don't know how to approach finding someone else. I used to just go to whoever I was thrown at and I got lucky with Vicki (my second last therapist)...
Sorry. >< I'm just not sure how much longer I can deal with any of this anymore. I've considered going to the ER a few times now but I'd be wasting their time. I have this feeling that I'm going to die... but not that I'm going to kill myself or anytime soon anyway. So I haven't gone. I need someone to talk to, even if talking isn't really my thing.
/end incoherent rambling venting session.
Also, what sort of things are they required to tell your parents? Would they tell my mum about my self-harm even if she already knows (though she thinks I stopped)? What about drugs...?
Medication hasn't been working and I stopped going to my hospital appointments to see my psychiatrist. I don't know if I'd start going back to those...
I wouldn't know how to mention this to my mum anyway. She thinks I'm fine.
I thought about art therapy... and seeing if that was available. I'm just rambling, honestly.
I miss my old therapist. I trusted her. I really miss her but she's too far away and I know I can't go back to her for a few reasons. I wish those reasons didn't exist... I'm scared of someone new. I'm very... particular... about who I would talk to and I don't know how to approach finding someone else. I used to just go to whoever I was thrown at and I got lucky with Vicki (my second last therapist)...
Sorry. >< I'm just not sure how much longer I can deal with any of this anymore. I've considered going to the ER a few times now but I'd be wasting their time. I have this feeling that I'm going to die... but not that I'm going to kill myself or anytime soon anyway. So I haven't gone. I need someone to talk to, even if talking isn't really my thing.
/end incoherent rambling venting session.
Also, what sort of things are they required to tell your parents? Would they tell my mum about my self-harm even if she already knows (though she thinks I stopped)? What about drugs...?