Numb..

[Hopegirl]

All i feel anymore is…nothing

Im trying to get help for my self-harm and suicidal thoughts ,however if i go see a councillor then if they believe that thing that i am a danger to myself or others then they will have to get my parents involved which is exactly what i dont want !

See i want to get help to stop my mum finding out about my self-harm & suicidal tendencies so she wouldnt find out and get hurt..

Yet if i dont get councilling i will continue cutting and over dosing and it could end so bad that she will be hurt more than anything else.

But guess what ,if i go to councilling and i try get my problem sorted and they decide to go tell my mum…then she’ll be hurt that i didnt go to her..

Anything i do will end up with her getting hurt..i seriously dont believe my life is worth living at times.i hate it and just wish i could..die and be away from the pain of living.

Ive been ditched yet again by some many of my friends, i told a friend about pretty much everything..shes been through lot so i presumed shed understand and i was completely wrong to say the least. Erm..yeah..:confused:

[Bath]

Seriously this explains my situation to every last detail.

I don't know what to do either. Is you need to talk, PM me. I can totally relate. I just plan on telling my therapist everything and whatever happens can't be worse than getting no help at all.

[Hopegirl]

Plus the person whos ment to be arranging my councillor is taking ages to do so ,so i feel im gunna slip back to over dosing :( urggh..i would pm you but i cant yet -.-

[TheRev]

ok heh i was suicidal hell i tried killing my self 5 times (friends stoped me or for some odd reason a skillet song come on heh) but i mean life is EVIL but at the same time you can not LIVE with out it ... i just started wighting songs for my band and came out about myself soon after that i never cut myself or think about death... but if you need help go to a counciler so what your mom may be hurt a little but thats nothing to what she will go though if you kill your self... just keep on living life is hard and like my friend says " you gotta suck it up be a man/girl and live you mother f*** life like today is your last day"