I kinda need help

[shakes101]

I dont like to blab to strangers about my problems but today wasent the greatest day. I dont want to go into detail, but it's hard to handle everything life throws at you sometimes right? reason being i had to use a gauze for the first time in a while to close my cuts, and i'm afraid im getting worse again.
besides wanting to express some of what im feeling im trying hard to get some help...

not professional help, i cant afford it so many reasons but i just cant, so im trying to diagnose myself with something other than depression, i really dont want to be like my mum.idk if this is allowed but um, im pretty much anonymous on these forums, so what do i care?(sorry admins)
My symptoms:
Agitation
Unnecessary stealing
Constant downs, few ups
Self harm
Constant headaches
Sudden Lost of skill (in writing, guitar)
Lost of interest
Apathy towards life
Worthlessness/ self loathing
Anti- social
Mask in public (acting, in order to seem alright)
Sudden loss in IQ (from 137 to 125 in the same randomly generated test)
Feeling of drowning, in the blue, submerged
Dark feeling in chest and throat at times

keep in mind i just turned 16 less than 3 months ago.

Thanks to whoever posts... i really do need help. my friend who hates me now got me to admit that.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Stephen in my opinion your just going through what alot of teens go through. Sometimes there is no real reason to why we feel like everything is kinda pointless. (loss of interest apathy worthessness anti-social)
But cutting isnt going to help solve anything its just going to make things worse in the long run. This is my first day on here in months because ive been homeless cause i lost my job because i had to many scars on my wrists and arms. Trust me cutting can have extremely bad concequences (sorry my spelling sucks right now)

[shakes101]

I guess you're right in a logical sense. But i dont think it fixes much.
the sh helps me stay on ground, otherwise i dont think i could keep going.

sorry to here about your situation,

[Charleigh]

Umm I guess its really good that you can point out these factors and you can decribe how you are feeling; however posting your symptoms on here wont help you very much hunny. You need to go to your doctor/gp/whatever they call it, and tell them how you feel. We can only advise you, but you need proper professional help.

I wish you the best of luck with everything;
PM me if you need anything.

[AudMac]

You really shouldn't diagnose yourself. It could put a lot of things in your head. Maybe see a school therapist, or a family doctor? At least someone who's more of a professional to help.

[emmettman]

hey hey its okay you can talk to us were all friend infact if it makes you feel better i think most people on this site joined to tell problems to people, make friends, know that theres someone out that like themselves with the same embarrasing problems